Your love is warmer than the warmest sunshine

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

to abel... =)

Behind these Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong

Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleepI'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

11:18 pm
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Sunday, November 27, 2005

full day of shopping today after choir at KKMC!!!!!! had an awesome time with jolene!!whoar... i just realised how unfit i am... we only window shopped for less than 3 hours and i was already close to crawling. hahahahaha... we had a great time at marina centre. lol. and found this new shop with beautiful clothes... but equally beautiful prices. haha. i haven't been to so many shoe shops in a day in my entire life!!! from URS.inc to Charles and Keith to NVC to PAZZION to Tinkerbell... oh my goodness. hahahaha. sigh... =) the lil shopping trip was exceptionally good cos we managed to talk alot... yes, we talked about everything... there was like almost no one second where we didn't say anything... other than the random times when we would be exhausted from walking around and just sit at benches in shoe shops. lol. when we finally realised that our interia was setting in exponentially, we decided to take a rest. so we went to STARBUCKS COFFEE at Suntec and just talked... =) what can i say? jolene darling.... u are just fabulous to go out with... looking forward to more shopping trips!!! =)

6:37 pm
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Saturday, November 26, 2005

choir the whole day today and gonna be the whole day tomorrow too... whoar... tired. but it was great. =) yeap. hahaha... ya.

after that i went to meet my kindergarten pal and good friend, the oh-so-cool mister william tse. haha. we had a fun time chilling out, as always. =) we went to BK for dinner. haven't met up with him for the longest time ever. he wanted to show me a cool shirt at Flash and Splash... but then... the shop was closing!!! haha... suay. then we went to sit at the cool place = the air vent. lol. ya... talked a lil bit, looked thru his never ending gallery of photos and then managed to get a shot of him with his styled hair on my phone's cam. not bad eh, i thought his hair was nice. especially the fringe part. hahahaha... yes, if u are reading this william, i bet u are smiling like crazy. haha. then it was getting late and he was gonna meet up with some other people for more nocturnal activities while i just wanted to go home due to sheer exhaustion. lol. yeap. met marianne at the bus stop with him and both of us ganged up to scare her!! lol. she's such a cool person!!! =) hahahaha... its been awesome knowing u marianne!!! oh well, yeap. then i went home and william went off with marianne to go and take more photos. hahahahaha... mad people lar.

william, with long fringe andcool styled hair. haha... with goofy smile. lol.

so tired. can't wait for this week to be over cos....... next week i will be going for my dental appointment for braces!!!! *jumps around wildly* YAY!!!! hahahahahaha... can't wait. =)

12:14 am
soak up the son

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Fixing a Broken Heart

There was nothing to say the day she left
Just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I hailed a taxi in rain
Looking for some place to ease the pain, ooh
Then like an answered prayer
I turned you around and found you there

* You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose draems have broken apart
Fixing a broken heart

Now I don't understand what I'm going through
There must be a plan that led me to you
Because the hurt just disappears
In every moment that you are near, yeah
Just like an answered prayer
You make the loneliness easy to bear

* repeat

Soon the rain will stop falling baby
And I'll forget the past
'cause here we are at lest

* repeat

my favourite song since sec 1 when i heard 2 sec 3 singers sing this song as a duet for Talent time.
its such a sweet song. i just love it. =)

10:28 am
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hmmm... i'm quite dead today... forgot to take $$$ before i left home, so now i'm in the office with a grand total of $4... extreme of pathetic-ness. argh.

will probably go and buy my dream dress today if my momsy is free to go with me... =) yeah! told u that it will be MINE. hahahaha...

can't take it anymore... i'm dying of thirst. i'm going to get a drink this instant.

10:00 am
soak up the son

Monday, November 21, 2005

haha... i just created a shutterfly account so now i won't have to load my photos onto blogspot which takes eyons to load and plays games with me while loading. ya. hahaha...

yes... announcement!!! new addition to the blog.... i seriously can't be bothered to upload pictures onto blogger anymore so just go to archives and check it out at shutterfly. hahahaha. of course some random pictures may be added on the blog itself... yeap. =)

today was a great day... i went to check out my dream dress... yes... that beeaauuttiifullllll halter dress that i saw last night with my momsy. OMG... i seriously can't stop dreaming about it... its like my dream dress lar... ahhhh.... its so so prettyyyy... and its gonna be MINE. hahahaha... soon enough.

tired. today is only monday... sigh... attachment ending soon... yay. haha. means time to start revising and getting down to serious work. which also means carolling season is drawing closer to its peak. hmmm...

B3!!!! we are having class outing on the 26th yes yes???? haha... i'm so so excited!!!! can't wait to see all u babes again!!!! =) just thinking of it makes me smile.

the stupid econs webbie is down... argh...

yeap... ok. a lot of random things today... haha... oh well.

7:21 pm
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RAAAARRRRRRR...... took a lot of pics today..... will upload it later when i get home.

AHHHHHH.... THAT celia loe dress..... it kills me to just look at it... its just beautiful. its the dress i've always dreamed of wearing!!! and its at a reasonable price!!!!! argh.

3:01 pm
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Sunday, November 20, 2005

HERE ARE THE PHOTOS FOR SATURDAY'S CONCERT!!! hahaha...

me... in the toilet before the battery officially died. LOL. my hands were rather shakey... meeps.

Jolin Tsai. she brought the whole staduim to a HIGH. =)

people were actually standing up and dancing to her music... and singing... lol. yeah. the small lil person with hands raised is Jolin Tsai. =) she has excellent stage presence.

zhang dong liang. he has a nice voice. =) was not too bad.

11:26 pm
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Honyi... classic example of boredom and self amusement during the concert... lol.

erm... i dunno what's his name is singing. lol.the FLAT guy.

cai chun jia. the effect is quite cool. looks like its snowing!!! haha.

OCEAN. yeap. can't exactly see his face properly. tee hee.

it looks as tho the stadium was quite full, but no.. it was half empty. haha.

best friends!!!! f5 forever. me and honyi dear before the concert. haha... we arrived approxiately one hour early and bought lightsticks from a guy who was working during his O levels. lol.

i was kinda forced to take this pic... hahaha... Sammi Cheng's BIG signature. lol.

the BIG and empty stadium. yes, we arrived extremely early.

10:49 pm
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Saturday, November 19, 2005

just got back from concert... dying. so sleepy. almost fell asleep during the concert. i'm sure honyi can testify to that... haha. both of us were like entertaining ourselves till Jolin came out. yeah... sigh. i don't even know what is the name of the concert i just went for... -_-... haha. but i had a good time with honyi...

hengyi was a super nice guy today. he lent me his digi cam so that i could take pictures of the concert and hopefully upload it on the com once its all been developed. i kinda rushed off after choir to meet honyi cos she called me a grand total of 4 times while i was at choir. lol. she was already screaming over the phone when i met up with her. haha. met her at Bugis where we had KFC. i decided to eat something light and cheap so i ordered some burger meal. the cashier placed a small lil object on my tray. i looked down. to my horror, the 'burger' was approximately the size of my fist. =.=. i was still starving when we got to Indoor Stadium. we were like 1 hour early cos we didn't want to get caught in some queue, which usually occurs. so we went in and sat down and started talking about random things that happened. which was awesome. yeap. then i got to meet honyi's other reporter friend who's writing the article regarding the concert with her. =) she had to keep emphasizing the fact that we were NOT fans of any of the singers and that it was rather embarrassing to be watching the concert. haha. the attandence at the stadium was rather pathetic. only half full. hmm... then there were many many awkward silences during the performance due to a severe lack of audience participation or cheering. haha. a bit sad....

the concert started off FLAT. yes... the first singer, i don't even remember his name, came up and opened the concert with a flat note. and throughout the rest of the concert, the 4 of us who were sitting in a row were trying to amuse ourselves by balancing the glowstick between our lips and noses as well as looking out for people who were either dozing off or were also amusing themselves. sadly, there was minimal hype to the concert. as i was about to fall into a deep slumber, it was JOLIN TSAI'S turn to go on stage. yes, the producers are very smart... save the best for the last. =) she was the best out of all of them. i'm sure all 4 of us can give a big high five to that. the concert was brought to the peak due to her awesome stage presence and ability to get audience participation. the other 4 before her were sadly less experienced, tho i must say that they have quite nice voices... just that they lack the stage presence. her skirt was oh so short and bouncy so at every little move, it would flip up. yes, how smart.

we were sitting quite near the stage but were not facing the stage... haha, yeah. we kinda like had to sit 45 degrees to actually see the stage. plus, the best part was the speakers were blasting at top volume and it was on our right, so by the end of the concert, we were all right ear deaf. i had to shout to honyi to communicate with her during the concert and was joking taht it would be rather lame to lose our voices trying to communicate with each other during the concert when people normally lose their voices cheering, singing and shouting for and at their favourite singers. haha.

yeap. i still had a great time tho. honyi's cool parents gave me a lift home. thank u uncle and auntie hon!!! =) yeap. had a cool time with hons... sigh...

missing u E, Bea and Nat. =)

choir today was great!!!!! absolutely wonderful. m,y admiration for our conductor just keeps growing every time we have practice. man... she really inspires me. =)

i'm really sleepy... and i'm currently having a headache from the concert just now. need my bed... God has been so good to me this whole week. giving me the strength to pull thru every single time i feel as tho i'm gonna fall dead due to exhaustion. can't wait for service tomorrow. yay.

oh yes, one more thing.. for people who haven't wathced Potter yet... u might like to not continue scrolling down cos i wrote a bit of the plot in my previous entry. but YOU HAVE TO GO WATCH IT cos, CEDRIC ROCKS!!!! ahhhhh... everytime i think of him.... sigh... hahahahahaha.... he's such a hottie la. hahaha.

lol. yeap. will post the pics from the concert when i have downloaded them from the cam. thanks again heng yi. =)

11:46 pm
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Friday, November 18, 2005

WOO HOO!!! went to watch Potter today!!!! it was not bad... just that i had expected maybe a teeny weeny bit more from the movie... i mean, ya... just a lil bit more. but undoubtly, NICE. hahahahaha... omg... my favourite character just died... like WTH. how could they kill the cutest guy in the show?!?!?! CEDRIC DIGGORY. argh... sob sob... T.T but anyhow... he's such a hot hot guy la... ahhh... but anyhow... feast your eyes on the hottest guy on earth...

the boyish hottie. haha. actually, he looks a bit weird in this pic... but oh well... hot nonetheless. =)

i so want to be Cho... omg if i could just be in her shoes... even if the world was gonna end... it would be ok. lol. ahhhhh.... can't take it. he's so hot. =)

hottie acting cool. haha... he actually looks nicer from bottom and side view rather than front view. he looks dashing in this pic la. haha... =)

so yes... i'd give Potter a 8.5/10. a micro bit disappointed. but hey, it was worth it... for CEDRIC. =)
actually, if u asked me... i think Just like Heaven was a much better show than Potter. i mean, ya... the graphics were excellent for Potter. sound effects everything was beautiful... the theme of friendship and brotherhood was brought across really well... but it lacked a certain amount of reality and human-ness if i can call it. i mean, Just like Heaven didn't have all these flowery graphics and all... but it was very real. i wouldn't say it is extremely real cos seriously, i doubt ppl can communicate and like fall in love with spirits and all but it was more real to me than Potter... yeah. 9.5/10 for Just like Heaven. haha.

11:36 pm
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Thursday, November 17, 2005

Accidentally in Love

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love [x7]

Accidentally

I'm In Love,
I'm in Love,
I'm in Love,
I'm in Love,
I'm in Love,
I'm in Love,
Accidentally [x2]

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love

i LOVE this song. aha. woo hoo. excellent stuff. makes me all happy whenever i hear it. =) thanks abel for downloading it for me. haha.

to ethel, pls rest dear. want to meet up with u soon. will be praying for u. you and your lil viral infection. sigh... love u dear.

to soph, thanks so much for your care and worrying these few days. i'm fine. don't worry abt me k? i'll be all right. must meet up soon yeah?

to E and Bea who are currently overseas, take care my loves. will pray for u too. have a good time overseas. enjoy yourself and have a good time with your family. hugs. love u both.

to nat, poor dear. organising orientation 2006 for us. love u to bits.

to hons, thanks u so so so so so much for the tickets. i LOVE u!!!!! u totally rock. haha. the singing queen and funky journalist. haha. can't wait to see u on saturday night. i'm gonna borrow digi cam from my friend just for that event. =) my first concert ever spent with the love of my life. haha. muaks.

11:07 pm
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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

tired. that's all i feel. tired. so exhausted and its only wednesday. oh boy.

reached the office pretty early today. actually, i went scouting the area around the building where the firm is to just check it out cos i reached Raffles Place interchange at 8.30am and the pearlly gates of the office only open at 9am. not that people only start streaming in at 9am. its just that i unfortunately don't have the password to the little security thingy at the gate. oh well. it doesn't matter. to my delight, i found STARBUCKS COFFEE. yes. i'm a total fan of Starbucks Coffee. its rather far away from the office, but oh well. bought my favourite quiche and happily made my way back in the direction of the office.

saw my tutor in her office clad in a nice denim skirt and nice blue top. which = no going to court today. sob. but its ok. will probably go on friday... i hope. haha. dunno la. didn't manage to speak to her before i left cos she went out of her office for some reason... hmmm... oh well. she brought me these 2 humongous stacks to read today. haha. but i was really appreciative. she's a really really really nice person. very patient and cool. haha. yeah. at least to me lar. haha. bought a take out from subway and cheese biscuits for lunch which left me dying in front of the computer screen not long after consuming the food due to the overdose of salt and lacking in sugar. was having a splitting headache, feeling dizzy and nauseous at the same time. kinda like sea sick. haha. the headache cleared after a while tho. thankfully. if not the cleaner auntie would have murdered me for puking on the carpet. i realised that there was milo in the pantry... but even so, i didn't have a cup and i didn't want to just use some random person's cup cos it isn't very nice. oh well. i'll just bring my cool nalgene bottle next time!!! haha. =)

yeap. choir tomorrow and then going gymming. yes, i'm getting FAT. need to lose weight. wasn't supposed to eat that naughty lil quiche today. but it was just too irresistible. haha. self control esther, self control.

attachment ending soon. which means, its time to start revising. people around me have been scaring me... they have started revising?!?!?! like what the... yeah. i'd better start reading my lit texts and going thru my J1 syllabus. yeah.

my sis is seriously getting on my nerves... argh. can't seem to ahve a proper conversation with her without losing my temper. this ain't good. yikes. God, you have to help me out here.

7:15 pm
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Tuesday, November 15, 2005

HONYI!!!!!! YOU ROCK!!!!!! i'm so so proud of you and so honoured to be your friend. omg... u rock. love u like crazy. haha. yeah... my head is still hurting from screaming so loudly during your class charity concert. haha... hui yan is so good too... omg... =) and GOODNESS its so not fair that u interviewed shu qi la... like... AHHH!?!?!?!?!? wth. T.T i want also..... sob sob. and its like only your SECOND DAY?!?!?! hahaha... so happy for you... but also so jealous that you get to do such fun things during your attachment (plus the cash... lol)... well, take a look at yours truely and count yourself extremely fortunate. haha. you stupid girl pang sae me.... thanks la... was so looking forward to running with you tomorrow.... =( but oh well... guess you must be really busy. everyone is busy.... sigh.

to my dearest F5:
hi there girls. how's life been for you all? i know holidays have been extremely jam packed with activities for all of us. as i told hons not too long ago, all of us are so much closer to pursuing our dreams now than we were last year or the year before.
i'm so happy for all of us: hons at SPH (envious eyes), me at law firm, nat at council meetings, E at nutty crack, and Bea at church and all. wow... my have we grown. its been a long year for all of us. it was not too long ago when we were still meeting up at KAP and feeling all weird about being seperated in different classes and schools and faculties. but look where we are now. we sure have walked a long way since then. this year has been exceptionally challenging for me. yeah... but it never fails to comfort me whenever i think about the 5 of us and the precious memories we had and continue to create as a group.
i was having choir today and i heard this one song that reminded me of u guys again. started tearing and almost cried when i heard it and thought about us, about our past, about our dreams and where we are right now.
i can still remember myself telling you guys that it doesn't really matter if i fit in in JC cos i know where i can feel at home. i'm glad i managed to make awesome friends in JC. the people i met this year are extraodinary and have made such a difference in my life. but there will always be an extra special place in my heart for you guys. i know its been really hard to meet up and we have found new friends in school. i'm really happy for u guys, especially honyi. it was very difficult for you at first. i can still remember all the back stabbing and weird things that would happen to you in school during first 3 months. haha. its quite funny now that we are looking back at them. i'm so glad you found people who share your 'unique' (ROFL) personality and 'mo qi' and your love for singing. as for the other 4 of us who are in AC together, i'm so glad that we actually still have a close friendship with each other and the other MG girls whom we might not have had in the past. really a big bonding session for all of us. truely, MG has taught us to make friends and AC has taught us to treasure them and keep them.
so my dearest dearest F5, as we grow up together, i pray we stay close even tho we are physically so far away from each other and that our friendship will really last forever and the memories will continue to develop and grow. =) i love you guys so so much. hugs. muahs.

yeap... that's my extra sentimental lil note to the 4 very special people in my life. u know who u are.

very tiring day. tomorrow is gonna be tiring too... i can so foresee it. i think i'd better start being more serious while at work. i think i've been slacking way too much. raar. yeap... i need to read more and open my eyes wider... cannot be some stupid dumb lil new girl at the office anymore. yeap.

God, i need your strength to go on... i'm crawling on my knees already.

11:04 pm
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Sunday, November 13, 2005

Dreams are ever changing
why do you always try
How we used to think that they would all come true
to hide your pain?
But don't stop smiling
i can really tell how you are feeling inside,
When the Maker makes a trial just for you
but you never tell me how you are really feeling.
Hold you focus
you always say that
Though it may be through the tears of hurt
you are ok
Inside a broken spirit
and it really gets to me
Don't be afraid to give it
when u try
One more chance
and hide it.

You are not alone
perhaps you don't want me to worry
Though the world may fail you
or think i won't understand,
Hold your head up high
do you not trust me?
Realise He loves you
i get even more worried and sad.
And though your prayers might seem unanswered
but never mind...
Don't forget He is the Master of all timing
as long as you commit it to God
I know you'll dance again...
it doesn't matter if i know or not.

9:23 pm
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today's church was awesome. the worship was just WOO HOO!!! haha. yeah. met Joshua again at the restaurant outside my church... haha... i keep meeting him there!!! tee hee. said hello to his mom today. =)

after service i went to Marks and Spencers to get some sweets before meeting my family and cousin at IMM. then after that i went to meet honyi my love. hahaha... we had a great time. =) many many funny things happened. hahahahahaha... we met at Westmall. was supposed to be having a nice classy tea at Coffee Bean, but the A level and O level people were studying there so we had to go somewhere else. the obvious choice was Macs. haha. so we sat at Macs and talked for quite a while.... then we went around Westmall getting things, as usual. tee hee. then she HAD to go and get something from Beauty World so i was dragged to Beauty World by her. hahahaha... tried in vain to call Bea to ask for directions. so in the end, i called my momsy. then we walked 2 bus stops to Beauty World cos we dumbly stopped at the wrong stop. lol. while crossing the road at the cross road, the green man had just lighted up and we took about 2 micro steps forward when suddenly a car just whooshed past us...

honyi: *shocked* F YOU.... =.=
me: *shocked* UNCLE!!!!!!!!!!! O.o

note that the above happened concurrently.

haha. we watched as the stupid reckless driver drove off. one more step forward and both of us, our bags and the RO-CHI that honyi bought for her momsy would have become part of the road. haha... yes.

i ended up following her to Rail Mall to returned her rented VCDs to Video EZ. then i walked her to the overhead bridge that was nearer her house. hahahaha... ain't i nice??? lol. of course, anything for you honyi. hahahaha. i can't wait to see you on tuesday!!!! =) too bad elaine will be too busy with her nutty crack. or else the whole F4 would be there to support u. but its ok. hahahaha... i will remember to wear the nice nice ring. =)

yeap. i have to work again tomorrow. all the best for your attachment which begins tomorrow darling. love you to bits. hope you do too. =) can't wait to go running with you on wednesday morning. hahaha... yes, i haven't exercised in months. u have to save me from being FAT!!! hahahaha. oh, be sure to wear your HC shirt. haha, i will wear my AC shirt. hahahahahaha... yes, i will run around the Hwa Chong Institute compounds in my AC shirt. lalalalala... oh, maybe we can go and visit your dad?!?!?!?! hahahaha. yeap. muaks.

9:04 pm
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Saturday, November 12, 2005

so tired... had a really long day in school...

choir was AWESOME!!!!

i think that's all i can say for now.

i have hardly anymore energy left to spare. the week has totally sucked the life out of me. there are so many things to do next week too. God, i need Your strength.

i need to sleep. zzzzz...

9:52 pm
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Friday, November 11, 2005

MSN is killing me... it just refuses to sign in. ARGH. T.T

i'm feeling rather crappy now... meeps. this irriation in me that is bursting to come out of me. this is when self control comes in... yeap. argh. self control esther, self control...

i had a great time jamming at Hannah's house tonight. tho there were very few of us due to the A level and O elvel exams that are currently going on. there were about 6 of us. pianist, guitarist and drummer plus... 3 singers? haha. yeah. a bit sad. but never mind. it was great. managed to learn a new song with Uncle Patrick in view of Sunday's service. yeap. =) our drummer is getting better!!! yes, keep it up Qihui. i know that u can do it. u've been improving by leaps and bounds already. i'm SO SO proud of u!!! =) haha. yeap.

very tired today. rushed home after work to change and go for worship prac. it has been crazy busy for me this past week. i think i need a miracle to survive the next. zzzz... i'm so tired, and MSN is just annoying. i shall go take a short nap on the sofa.

10:45 pm
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i just read hon's blog. almost cried.
B3... i miss u. all of you out there!!
i definitely agree that the memories that we have as a class are extremely precious. i still remember not so long ago when we first got to know each other... and not to forget our beloved form teacher, Ms Ng, who has since learnt to use the handphone and type SMSes. lol. i will always remember how each morning, me and hon would be one of the few who would arrive at wee hours of the morning (at around... 5.50am? sometimes earlier... haha. yes, we were mad). me, for my then kiasu nature (which has somehow over the course of the 2 years, faded away bit by bit with the help of u guys), and hon, for her hitching a ride from uncle hon due to laziness (which has not changed, and she's proud of it. lol). then the sam would trot into class, followed by grace and the japanese anime clique. each morning, i would hear a new story from sam about either her twin sister or her beloved chinchillas. which never fails to brighten up my day. by 6.10am, most of the class would be here. juang and dell and sue and pet would be in a corner talking about new clothes and shoes and shopping trips, nussy and khairu and mumtazah would be huddled in a corner giggling... sometimes i wonder what they are actually talking about. khairu always has that cheeky smile on her face. haha. then elaine would come in at around 6.15am and would start talking about ballet class the previous day. nat would be sitting around, stoning. haha. aliya and chong would be sitting on the counter at the back of the class, laughing non-stop. then at around 6.25am, ivin would come into class sweating cos she had jut dashed to school from home; Megan would sashay into class with her pink handbag and many many accessories in it (if that was one of the days she decided to come. haha.) not forgetting janice and sheryl. by the time its 6.29am and we're all trooping downstairs for assembly at the 2nd bell with the same hymn that is played each day at full blast for approximately 3 minutes, beatrice would be huffing and puffing her way up the stairs while we are on our way down. lol. hahaha... yes yes. these memories i will never forget. a typical day in B3.

i will never forget the English lessons, whereby we would have to amuse ourselves and make ourselves high in a bid not to fall asleep while Ms Ng repeats herself over and over again about ED (excess denied) during compre. the frisky lambs during English. haha. then there was Math lessons, where Mrs Tee would tell us a joke that is actually not that funny, but we all burst out laughing when she starts tearing at her own jokes and takes out tissue to wipe hr tears from her leopard skin handbag. haha. the constant threats from her to our class that we should drop A Math if we didn't pass up our homework 'tomor-roo' and her parrot Smart-Tee, never fails to add a bit of life to our rather mundane Math syllabus. i will never forget Chemistry lesson. how we used to have Mr Tay, and then we (thankfully) changed to Mrs Tan in our sec 4 year. i'm totally indepbted to her. i thought i would fail Chemistry under Mr Tay. hahaha. yes. remember the stupid skit we came up with when we were doing the assignment on Carbon cycle my dear F5??? hahahaha. Mr Tihs, the plant fairy, the Woc and what was the last character? haha... can't remember. lol. oh well. i will never forget the -_-" look on Mrs Tan's face each time the class cracks some super lame joke. =) then there was PE, where we kept on changing teachers. haha... actually, we kept changing Co-form teachers too. lol. oh well. haha... then physics and bio lessons... hahaha... the bio people will come back to class telling us about how interesting bio was and us physics people would be half dead. half lit would be fun cos Ms Bong would tell us about the new movie she watched only to realise that it is RA and we are all underaged... >.< geog and history lessons were extremely funny. haha. with e and bea coming back to complain to us about the lesson, and me nat and hon complaining back to them about geog. hahahaha...

then there was the many many class competitions that we took part in. haha... i don't think anyone will forget the HARMONY song and the Save the Water advertisement. the Teachers' Day message from our class to Mrs Tee and Ms Ng, the class barbeque, which is always at Michelle's house. lol. the Valentines Day roses that we'd send to each other. the Teachers' Day dress up thingy where we all dressed up in Retro stuff in sec 3, and we all couldn't be bothered to dress up in sec 4. hahaha. sigh... 2 years... best 2 years of my life. i can't descibe it all within one entry... miss u all so so much.

9:34 am
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i'm at the office again. today is gonna be a great day... i think. lol.

something rather unfortunate happened just a few seconds ago: i just realised that i have added yet another stain on my now not so flawless white Zara shirt. argh. and its the same one i drew a lil orange line on. yes... i think it happened just now on the train or when i was at Coffee Bean stoning. dunno. haha. white shirts are the worst to maintain. *shireks* i have found YET ANOTHER STAIN. argh. this is terrible.

9:10 am
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today was such a tiring tiring day.

choir in the morning. i was having a potential sore throat so i sounded terrible. airy and unsupported. gross. =( we sang ON SURI!!! yay. and we are gonna sing it again on Saturday!!! i've been dying to sing that Christmas song. super nice!!! can't wait for combined choir session with the alumnae on Saturday... so exciting!!!

after that, went home and napped cos i was about to die already. exhaustion. slept for about 2 hours, but kept waking up at half an hour intervals. its a very annoying thing to keep waking up, especially when u are dead tired.

then at around 5.40pm, i got up and changed to go out for dinner with the AHSCones at Swensons at 7pm. yeap. Shaun's birthday today!!!

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY SHAUN!!!

haha. abel was a sweetie pie. he called me up at around 6.15pm to make sure that i didn't oversleep. awwwww.... yeap. managed to get there on time. tho the surprise party was quite a flop, i had a great time. managed to catch up with Ethel and Cheryl and Soph and Clare and Nat and Meiz (for a lil while cos she had to leave pretty early to make dinner for her family... ...) and Shaun and Brendan and Abel and the rest of the AH ppl whom i've missed dearly ever since school ended. yeap. i ate a whole lot of fries for dinner and a pathetic omelette about the size of 2 fists put together. talked and laughed and had a great time making noise on the second floor of Swensons. oh well. yeap. reached home pretty late cos i lost track of time. haha.

i'm super tired. i think i'd better go and bathe now. need to sleep. working tomorrow morning. =)

12:05 am
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Wednesday, November 09, 2005

i just made a list of people i need to buy christmas presents for... i think i need to rob a bank... T.T

back from work. lol. oh well, its been another day of intensive reading at the firm. everyone there is so nice. they don't exploit me and take advantage of me just cos i'm there for attachment by making me do out of point things like make coffee. haha. yeah. people there are really really nice.

i was on the mrt on my way home when suddenly, while emerging from the tunnel just before Redhill station, the train jerked really hard and pulled over right on the track (yes, where else can the mrt train pull over anyway...), in the MIDDLE OF NOWHERE!!!! uh huh. so the whole train of people,which was extremely packed at that time due to the rush hour, kinda held their breath as the train crawled (and i mean CRAWLED) towards the next station. it was a frightful experience. i could picture the next train just slamming right into ours if we were stuck there and didn't move. then... i would have gone to meet my beloved daddy. haha. but i guess its not time yet. muahahahaha, i'm sure He has better plans for me than to die in some train crash. lol.

today was such a tiring day... choir tomorrow... eeee... i'm so tired. guess i'll sleep early tonight. i'm all ready to keel over and collapse on my lovely bed.

9:56 pm
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PW is offically over!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!! *runs around madly*

i victoriously threw away our visuals after the OP session this morning into the dumpster next to the notcie boards!!YEAH!! no more agony, no more sleepless nights, no more reading spastic reports over and over again, no more waking up at wee hours just to do presentation trials, no more mad rush for deadlines, no more... *ahem* (you know who), NO MORE PW!!!!!

LIBERATION!!!!!

yay. haha. ^-^

many things happened the past few days. let's see...

first, i got through the OGL interviews!!! and so did ethel, cheryl, jolene, and MANY MANY MANY of my wonderful classmates from AH red. you should really go and check out the list. its like... half our class got through the OGL interview!!! yay. so did bea. so happy. can't wait for next year!!! muahahahaha.

yesterday's choir performance was a rather emotional ride. i was scared personally, at the start. i didn't want it to fail. i mean, each time i sing with the choir, i never want the performance to be a flop. but i was scared. cos warm ups wasn't so good. i was having cold sweat in the bus. but my fears died when we did our sound check. we were all right. everything was going smoothly. yeap. thankfully, everything turned out well and we had fun singing all the nice songs and had an awesome time. i just love choir. the music, the people and the principles that hold us together - discipline, friendship, integrity, love, passion, commitment... wow. without choir, i think my JC life would have been so dull. choir has given my JC life a soul. yes, and tho at times we make sacrifices to go for choir, i think its worth it. yeah. each time we make great music together, i feel my heart soar and goosebumps and then i just can't stop smiling. just love u guys to bits. =)

everything has been kinda mad this week, and i foresee next week being worse by at least 10 times. many times, i feel as tho i cannot go on anymore. but then God just picks me up and carries me on His ever so strong and loving arms. each day is made new and refreshing because of Him. you know, i remember a period of time when i felt so unloved. it was a scary feeling, an empty feeling, an insecure feeling. and even tho i knew that people around me cared for me very much, i couldn't feel that love. i don't know if you've ever felt this way... unloved. it isn't something that suddenly comes to u. it develops slowly but surely and when it finally dawns on you the thought that you are 'unloved', you will break down. (sounds very emo and mad, but i dunno, maybe girls feel it more, again i'm generalising here.) yes, and me with an SI personality doesn't make it any better. but ya, unloved. that's what i felt.

but then God broke through my darkness and restored me back into the light. it was as tho i had my face turned down to the floor for the longest time ever, crying and crying, and then suddenly this loving hand comes and lifts my head up to look up at the light and wiped away my tears. and when i reflect upon that period of time, i can hear the Lord so clearly saying 'My Princess, i love u so so much, so keep your eyes on me and don't look anywhere else. seek my face, darhling. and even when u are in the shadows i know where you are and will carry you out from it.' wow.

it suddenly dawned on me that my feeling of being unloved was a really foolish feeling cos there was someone over here who loves me so deeply and is so jealous to get hold of my love. and that just filled up every single one of the insecurities and emptiness that i had within my heart.

truely, there is a God-shaped hole in each and every one of us that ONLY God can fill and nothing else. nothing, not money, not material blessings, not grades, not property, not even your best of best friends. NOTHING. and until God fills that hole, u will feel empty. if you think it feels like having no money in your wallet when you shop or when u have no shopping bags while walking along Orchard road, i assure u, its nothing like that feeling. even i, being born and bred in a Christian family and home where love (supposedly) abounds, have experienced it. emptiness. not a nice feeling at all. but guess what, God is the key to that unique lock in your heart. only He holds the key. but you must be willing to let Him come in. he ain't gonna force His way thru. haha. yes. i have a gentleman papa.

can u imagine? you are put up for adoption and the person who comes and adopts you is the KING OF THIS UNIVERSE? like... oh my goodness!!! and He loved you at the first sight of u and always will till eternity... wow. how amazing. and you had nothing to offer Him, yet He took you in not because of pity, but because of true LOVE.

wow... i'm feeling all warm and fuzzy inside now... haha. ok. i think i shall go now.

2:15 pm
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Monday, November 07, 2005

first day at work today... yay... was almost late for work this morning. it was quite scary. haha. took a cab to the office cos i was scared i would get lost and risk going to work on the first day super late. yes yes. but i managed to rush to work on time by God's grace. yup. was starving by the time i got to the office tho. cos i didn't eat breakfast and only had a small lil quiche for lunch. but then again, i'm on a diet so it doesn't really matter. i almost died when i weighed myself last night. it was a disgusting sight... don't ask. >.<

i've been reading non-stop since i started work at around 9am. files after files after files, case after case after case... my eyeballs are gonna pop out soon and my brain cells are fried due to information overload. the brain can't take it anymore... and what, i still have 2 more hours to go. T.T working life is not that bad... i mean, today's work wasn't even actual work. it was just reading and all. jessica (the prettiest and coolest lawyer on earth, who happens to be in charge of me for this peroid) said that there wasn't much that she could give me today and she wanted me to just get used to the documents that were used and the types of procedures taken when filing a court case or anything of that sort. sadly, i dirtied my lovely white shirt during lunch with my naughty orange pen... raar... yes, the flawless shirt now has a mark. sob. yes, if u were wondering, it is my NEW Zara white shirt which i bought yesterday. i have kinda promised myself that when i actually do go to work next time, all my clothes would be bought from Zara. the clothes there for working class are fantastic... just that the prices are as fantastic. yeah... i would have killed my dad's credit cards if i got them. haha. yeap.

i actually feel as though i'm in a Sophie Kinsella book. seriously, i never dreamed that working in a law firm would be something like what Sophie Kinsella writes in many of her books, though none of the characters in her books works in a law firm, i think... haha. but ya, it actually has a semblence of a Sophie Kinsella story. which may not be such a bad thing. actually, its a good thing to me. haha... cos i'm totally in love with Sophie Kinsella's book. LOL.

the sights and sounds at the law firm are actually quite similar to a staff room. yes, and i mean the school type. hmmm... ya... lol. the people here are really really nice. josephine is a really motherly and nice lady. yes, on the phone she sounded nice, but in real life, she's even nicer. yeap.

okie dokes. gotta run. ta ta...

3:54 pm
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Sunday, November 06, 2005

ARGH. this sucks!!!!!!

forget it. the more i think about it, the more irritated i get. argh. so hard to love people who are so... annoying. to love te people we are stuck with FOR LIFE. God, you have to help me. i'm about to burst already. i think i can implode right now. how am i supposed to LOVE???

RAAARRRR.... >.< this HAS to happen minutes before i go to sleep. doink.

seriously, i think i've fallen into the devil's trap again. i'm so aggitated by it and i can't seem to control my words. and looking backon today, i realised that i said a whole lot of hurtful things. argh. i really don't want to devil to get hold of this extremely fatal weakness of mine. it is a really sickening feeling when you realise that its not just God and yourself who knows your weakness, but also the devil who is lurking at every single corner, waiting to pounce upon your weak spots and devour you anytime. its scary. and i think i just let him exploit my weakness the whole of today. especially just now. argh. man... it feels really yucky to know that you allowed youself to cave in to your weaknesses. sigh.

church was great today. haha. it always is. =) then it was shopping cos tomorrow i'm officially attached!!! haha. walked from takashimaya to wisma atria then took mrt to raffles city and then walked to marina square just to get ready for tomorrow. yes yes, i think i burnt a hole in my dad's pocket. spent like $99 at Zara and $100 over at URS inc. then my working pants which requires dry cleaning only was like $70 around there... argh... sorry daddy... not like i wanted the clothes to be so expensive... sorry... my momsy looked really tired today... i think she's exhausted from work and everything... and she was really nice to follow us to the shops... i know she wanted to go hoe actually and pig out. but she had fun shopping...i think... hmmm... yes, my momsy rocks! lunch was rather disasterous. don't want to talk about it. yup.

today was a rough day. i was extremely emotional today. not being my usual self. i can't blame the mood swings on puberty cos it ain't fair. esther, you need to SADDLE YOUR EMOTIONS, you pig!!!! yeap.

i think i need to go polish my sword now and then have an early (or rather earlier as compared to usual days) night rest. if not i probably will wake up late and get sacked on the first day of attachment or something. haha.

11:12 pm
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Saturday, November 05, 2005

hey!!! today was fantastic. i love today!!!! hahaha... had choir in the morning. had to peel myself out of bed. lol. yes... must i mention the cause of my tiredness. haha. pee double you. and i will be liberated on the 9th!!! woo hoo. =)

i actually thought that my day was gonna be super sucky today. cos i didn't manage to go for the full choir practice due to OP trial runs... blah. go away la pee double you. oh well.

ahhhh... people actually bother to tag!!!! i'm so so happy... my tag board was stagnant for the longest time ever and i was getting quite sad... hahahahaha... thank you so so much my dear dear friends. i love you all. muaks. u guys have just brightened my day. so now, i shall reply the tags. yay. =)

>> jojo: i only took one blur picture! blame the rest on debbie, hahaha! wheee. let's have an ahred girls sleepover soon okay. i hope. haha!
[hello jolene dearie. thanks for tagging. muaks. you know my parents don't allow me to sleep over... sob sob. but i will go over and watch movies and play board games or something k? love u!!]

>>joyce k.: hey es, haha your ans to the 'are u attached' qn is so freakin hilarious! haha what didn't mrs f&w teach us? eee i'm still swimming with my head in magma for plate tec! it's so hard!!
>>joyce k.: oh have i said before that your entries are really inspiring? you really have a lot of faith and i must learn from you!
[hey joycie!!!! ahhhhh... its been a super long time since i got to talk to you!!! how have you been babe??? missed you and the rest of B3 like mad. honyi keeps wanting to have a class gathering... but its so hard to coordinate lar... sob. anyway, hahaha... i guess we all have a lot to learn dearie... personally, many many things have happened to me this year... too many. but God puts us through trials so that we learn to cling to him tighter and learn from our mistakes and ultimately become stronger, yes yes?? i still have so so much to learn. haha. luv you loads!!! muaks.]

>>jojo: hmmm esther, now we know which topic gets more of your attention! hahaha!
[hmmm.... T.T....]

>>honyi: HEY ass!!! Yup I MISS YOU x 1000 TOO!!!!!!! Though I just kinda saw you HAHA! YUP it's SPH darn cool right!! Just that I get to go in casual outfits, MY KINDA JOB!
>>honyi: About the attached thing...how dumb can one get dear ASSey. But have fun at the law firm you HAVE to tell me ALL ABOUT IT!!!
[hello my sweets. how have you been? been missing me? i've been missing you a whole lot. miss you to bits. when on earth does your attachment start? u still haven't told me. i will go visit u. me in my long sleeved collared shirt and work pants, and you in your usual nike faded shirt and jeans. muahahahaha... ahhh... miss you so so much babe. i miss e and bea and nat too... can cry when i think about the 5 of us... but i'm SO happy that we finally have a semblence of pursuing our dreams instead of just talking about them in secondary school. e is like busy dancing her way to rehearsals at the nutty crack, i'm at the law firm, and you at your (qian li tiao tiao) SPH. and then bea, her usual motherly self, at home and all. and nat, busy like mad organising things for orientation next year... wow... i'm so excited. but also, so sad we are so busy. darhling, i really miss all of u. i love the ring. brightens up my day whenever i see it. i've decided to bring it everywhere i go liao. even to work attachment. lol. yes yes. haha. love u so so much. muaks. btw, when are we ever going to crash mrs lim's house??? tee hee.]

>>[susu]: hey hey! i totally agree now is not a good time to get attached. so dunt! when it happens, it'll happen. and god will send someone special for you. so just keep the faitH!
[hey bro... haven't seen you for quite a while too!!! miss you quite a bit. sigh... when are we going out again? watch movie yes yes? or just have a AHSCone hangout or something. it'll be quite cool. kinda miss the daily vd meetings and all... hahahaha... love you loads bro. take care yes yes??? muaks. btw, what exactly are u doing this whole holiday??? haha.]

yup. thanks to you all!!! love you guys!!! God bless!

9:18 pm
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Friday, November 04, 2005

today was an okay day...

woke up at 9.10am and was supposed to meet the rest of the pw group in school by 10am... yes, i'm such a pig. we were surprisingly productive today for pee double you... it wasn't as crappy as i thought it would be. haha... yes, i have rather low expectation of our pee double you meetings... we had macs for lunch to which i ordered grilled chicken foldover cos it was deemed healthier... hahaha... yes, my group members are rather supportive of my dieting plans!!! excellent!!! =D haha...we ended by 1pm. gayle said that our group dynamics is rather interesting. i totally agree... LOL.

geog lecture was next... we went in a lil bit late due to the late delivery by the Macs guy. thankfully, the lecture hadn't began yet cos mr lynn wasn't able to get anything on the screen just as yet. phew. geog lecture was long as usual... but today's was rather interesting.. learnt something new in geog class today that mrs ahem (fredrick and walter) apparently didn't teach us in secondary school... or rather, she never allowed us to see that perspective of Plate Tectonics... hahaha... maybe that was why i hated that topic so much in secondary school.

everything has been quite rough. the holidays are getting busy... and monotonous... i kinda miss choir and singing... and my dear other half jolene... sigh... hahahahaha... and its only been what, 5 days since i last saw the choir peeps on monday. whoar... haha. oh well. my attachment is gonna start soon. called up the law firm today and was greeted by a really nice lady... or at least she sounded extremely nice over the phone. i can't wait to go over and take a look. yeap... which means... i need to go and get more long sleeved collared shirts and all sorts... hahaha... yeah, black work pants and that sort of thingys. haha... quite exciting. but other than that, there is hardly anything much to do now... i hope things get busier... i'm quite worried that i'm actually slacking quite a bit now. cos everything seems to have become so laid back that i'm starting to worry. perhaps i have a lot of work waiting for me... i just haven't exactly realised it yet... argh... i hope not tho, that would be like my worst nightmare. haha. but anyhow, i spent practically the whole afternoon in front of the tv. flipping channels like mad. from one chinese drama serial to the next, from one movie to another. yes, esther ang is pigging out. meeps. >.<

just a few days ago, i was on the bus with Gina and Christelle on my way home before going out for dinner with william and friends, when Gina asked me 'So Esther, are you attached?'. and i happily said, 'Yeah i am. i'm attached to a law firm for the next two weeks starting next week.' then there was silence as Gina looked at me in disbelief for the next 30 seconds. and yours truely just stared back at her innocently. haha. sorry la. how i know what you girls were referring to? haha. but seriously, how to get attached now? i haven't even sorted out my life properly. i can't even balance my time between geography lectures and my work attachment and church commitments are also there... and then there's my family and my friends, AND SCHOOL!!! argh. so many many many many things... tell me how to get attached? i can hardly breathe as it is already. plus, there are like so many trials that have been coming at me non stop. how to get attached? i also dunno. to those out there who are attached in JC, i'm happy for u. haha. was talking to my cousin who is in the army last night before he went back to camp and he was telling me to concentrate on m studies. true. i have too many things to worry about already at hand. plus, next year, all the teachers promised hell in terms of work and syllabus to cover, and i have also gotten myself involed in Arts Council and OGL-ing. and not forgetting, there's choir. woohoo... there goes my life. haha. yeap. so does that answer your question, Gina? and yeah. i do believe that its not the right time... not at all. =D

God has been good to me all this while despite all the things that has happened around me. i guess only He understands my deepest thoughts. yes, Psalm 139 says it all. i can't imagine what my life would be like without God... i think i'd be long dead. thankfully, He knows my everything. my thoughts, my struggles, my words even before i speak them, my actions, my personality, my every move. wow. and that is a comfort a lot of times. that someone out there really loves you so so much that He can't bear to see me just the way i am, He wants me to be even better, to be Just like Jesus. wow... that like totally drives me to tears.

muaks.

7:10 pm
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Thursday, November 03, 2005

today was quite a good day.

i had to dig myself out of my bed at 8.30am to meet my cousins at Centrepoint for worship seminar at 9am. all thanks to pee double you to which i stayed up till near 1.30am to finish up the slide show for OP, i was terribly sleepy and could hardly walk properly on the way to the bathroom.

worship seminar was great. Paradise church from Adelaide was the band for the seminar and they were fantastic. then the worship leading course was excellent too... and my cousin was sitting beside me snapping photos like mad... i was like... erm... haha... she was tempted to put on the flash, to which i objected violently.

after worship seminar, my parents, sis, 2 cousins and i walked around Orchard looking for nice dress pants and shirts for formal occasions. i got my cousin to try on gowns for her prom night, but she didn't exactly know how to wear the dresses properly and kept tugging on them till no end. T.T hahaha... but it was fun... i think my dad was bored to bits, cos the 5 of us were just flitting from shop to shop to shop and then coming out empty handed. yeap. he wisely went to drink coffee at Coffee Club in Wisma while we carried on shopping after one hour of shopping with us. haha... sorry daddy... >.<

yes, as usual i didn't buy anything... grr... haha... cos i couldn't make up my mind and the prices of the shirts and pants that i wanted were way off budget. then my sis and i went home in a cab cos she needed to finish up some work and i needed to rush back to finish up the pee double you slides, while my parents and 2 cousins stayed on to attend the night service by Paradise church... argh... not fair.

yeap. so here i am... thankfully i have finished doing my slides already and will now do my visuals and edit my speech for tomorrow before samuel murders me. haha...

8:15 pm
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005

today started off well. woke up at around 9 something and then went with nadine to try gowns at Daniel Yam. haha. nick tagged along... hahahahaha... okay... self explainitary why he did. lol. then, we did lunch together and then i went to samuel's house for pw.

yes, the guy that lives at sixth avenue opposite our very own queen of caldecott hill. haha... his house was extremely nice... his maid is like funky la. hahaha. oh well. did pw from around 1 to 6 something in the evening, then rushed back home to grab more cash and then went down to orchard to meet william, who was in his CJ school uni.

haha. met 2 of his friends there... marianne and... and... was it caroline?? sorry!!!! i really can't remember... but both of them were awesome to be with although i had only met them for like the first time in my life, it felt like we had known each other for forever. hahaha... dinner was at NYDC... hahaha... we had a great time. and then we went to walk walk around Heeron and took neoprints!!!! to which i discovered that i was FAT. yes... FAT. so i'm on a diet now. i must lose at least 4 kg by the next time i meet them... hahahaha... made a lil agreement with william about the losing weight thingy. haha... i think i freaked him out. hahahaha...

yeap. today was a good day. very tiring but very fruitful. i can foresee myself not sleeping for the next 2 days just trying to finish up pw... argh... the stoopid thing. oh well.. yeah. i think i'd better start. its rather late le and i just got home. haha.

10:52 pm
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Tuesday, November 01, 2005

xi zen, trick or treating headless... by this time, everyone was mad... haha... our attempt to leave him on the road like this failed... hahahahaha.

ethel, cheryl and me!!! i think we look great in this photo... except that cheryl looks a bit... hahaha... constipated... tee hee...

AH redders at Matt's party... debbie, me, jolene, matt and ethel.

me, wearing kenneth's lil hat... hahaha... and jolene's shakey hand... lol.

princess tasha and kat. handing out forks! and spoons! hahahaha.

there were other super super nice photos which just refused to upload themselves onto my blog... oh well... hahahaha. will probably post them on friendster or something. lol.

11:45 pm
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the Halloween party at Matt's house was awesome... tho it seemed as tho there was not going to be food at the party, or so Matt said that there was a lack of food, which turned out to be a feast, we had an awesome time. haha... mister shaun chan was an extremely nice guy. he was supposed to wait for me after choir and go to Cold Storage at Holland with me to pick up food... but then... some things happened... and he went to Matt's house first... then he said he would call to tell me what food was lacking at Matt's house... but at 7.30pm, i was still carrying the silly lil green basket at Cold Storage and walking around like a clown. haha, in the end, i decided to forget about waiting for his call. the ham and bread sticks wouldn't have made it if i did. hahahahaa. oh well... turns out... he kinda forgot to call. hahahahaha. its ok shaun. tee hee. anyway, we had a smashing great time yesterday!!!

check out the fantastic pics we took:

me and cheryl... we couldn't take it anymore... we just had to eat. altho we were supposed to wait for more people to arrive. hahahaha.

cheryl, abel (aka mister SCREAM) and ethel. thumbs up!!!! hahahaha...

the execution of the faeces. hahahahaha.... matt (aka Jeddi), ashish (aka Singapore flag), abel, Josh (aka terrorist, fellow JI follower for the night), mich yeo (aka the BLACK THING). hahahahaa. and of course, jolene (aka toilet bowl seat and piece of crap). lol. what more can i say? we were high! haha.

the SCREAM.... attempting to kill me and my dear ethel without a weapon... hahahahahaha...

11:02 pm
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this is a random shot of cheryl that i just have to put up on my blog... hahahahaha... everyone has it... tee hee... i love u to bits cheryl!!!!

7:24 pm
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