Sunday, January 28, 2007
roarrrr...
why so downcast oh my soul within me..
=((
11:00 pm
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Thursday, January 25, 2007
some people are just disappointing; others are just worth my utmost sympathy.
i thank Daddy God for giving me such open parents, who would support me in everything and pursue dreams that may seem impossible. most importantly, they embrace the way i grow and develop giving room for me to breathe and the space to explore. i love my parentssssss!! =DD
haha.. anyways, been having a very slack week. today i went for dental. sad news is that i have to remove my wisdom teeth on the lower jaw after cny!!! horror on horrors.. yeahhh. i wanted to go on GA and be like totally knocked out when they do the whole operation but then the dentists adviced against it. so i'll be wide awake when the operation is carried out!! OUCHHHH!!! hahaha. not that i will be able to feel anything till after the operation.. heh.
went to visit shaun and darren in school today. hahaha. there's this massive pile of stuff in front of shaun's laptop.. poor thing. jia you!!! heh. then met clarissa by chance cos she was having lunch. heard that meix is teaching econs at ac too but i didn't manage to catch her cos she left already. met MR TANU at the canteen!! i haven't seen him in like such a long long time and he has like cool hair now. heh heh. so me, ashish and bev were talking to him in the canteen for the longest time. hahaha. topics covered ranged from army to drinking, to cool hang out places, to teachers and then back to drinking. hahaha. saw the side of mr tanu that is just plain nice. yeahhh. fantastic guy. actually, i realised that there's a child in all of us and it really depends whether we want to show it or not. haha. saw a bit of THE CHILD in sir today but its not a bad thing at all cos after all teachers are human too, yes??
rightios... tomorrow is gonna be another busy busy day. was supposed to go out with elaine but then i think we had to abort plan cos i have worship prac tomorrow from afternoon till late. roarrr. i miss my F5... when are we ever gonna see each other again?! =((
i hope my dear leneeee is doing really finee. she sounded pretty sad when she smsed me abt her OT this evening. must hang in there sweetsss!!! think shopping and cute shoes and nice bags and NEW YORK after all this nonsense. HANG IN THERE!!!!!
oh wells, i'm starting work again next week... GAMBATE ESTHER!!! must persevere!!! jia youuuuu...
till next time, WORLD PEACEEEE!!!!
8:51 pm
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
finally i get a week of rest from work and all. yayyyy...
haha. i bet someone is reading this from the office and wants to smash the screen up into itty little bits. haha. partly the reason why i'm blogging is cos of YOU la. hahaha. somemore come and say that recently my blog lacks substance. pffftttt. help me say hi to ye office colleagues and da jie too. heh. XP
my 3 weeks of teaching at mg was great. love my kiddos to bits... actually i was really really sad that i wasn't gonna be teaching them anymore when i get back next week. sigh. but never mind... at least in school we can still meet for coffee or tea or whatever. hahahaha.
so anyways, i'm getting a bit jittery cos after my next 3 weeks i will be JOBLESS. that's a pretty scary thought. i mean, it never really occurred to me until now that unemployment could be so real and such a cause for anxiety. haha. but of course, i'm still trusting God to give me a job... where ever it may be. i met this woman who works at HUGO BOSS' main office last night when i went for wedding dinner... like such a cool job can. obviously my skin is not as thick as to ask her if she could hire me as her secretary or something.. but of course that would be ideal. hahahaha. dream on.
yes yes... so this week is kinda like a holiday week for me. been waking up like in the afternoons and all. it just shows that getting up at 5.30am every other day for the past 3 weeks is simply unearthly. hahaha. managed to catch up with abel and ethel whom i haven't seen for like a ker zillion years... okay for maybe few weeks la. hahaha. we were like chilling at coffee bean at wheelock while talking abt a certain c*** e* l**. HAHAHAHA. i wonder how the rest of AHSCones are doing.. hmmm.. hopefully more of them will be at bible study tonight.
i'm on my little diet again. yessss... hahaha. as you know, now with all the extra work to do and stuff there's practically no time to exercise anyways. hahaha. lame ole excuses. the dieting was triggered after my sister's friends commented that i look so different now ie. look so much fatter now or gained so much extra weight. hahahaha.
to a skinner self, here i come!!! =PP
till i update again,
WORLD PEACE!! =DD
1:03 pm
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Monday, January 22, 2007
You're my Honeybunch, SugarplumPumpy-umpy-umpkin, You're my Sweetie Pie
You're my Cuppycake, GumdropSnoogums-Boogums, You're the Apple of my EyeAnd I love you so and I want you to know
That I'll always be right here
And I love to sing sweet songs to you
Because you are so dear=DD
12:14 pm
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Friday, January 19, 2007
i'm totally regretting everything i said already. arghh. =(((((
11:58 pm
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Sunday, January 07, 2007
Insomniacby Billy Pilgrim
I can see you, don't even know you
Falling into the sheets at night
I place my hands flat on my chest
I feel the heart beat back the night
I try counting sheep, and I talk to the shepherd
And I play with my pillow for ever and ever
I sit alone and I watch the clock
I breathe in on the tick and out on the tock
I can hear your bare feet on the kitchen floor
I don't have to have these dreams no more
Cause I've found someone just to hold me tight
Hold the insomniac all night
Dig my head down deep so I can't hear the cars outside on the street
And the stars are laughing
They get a kick out of my misery
I tried everything short of Aristotle to Dramamine
And the whiskey bottle
Pray for the day when my ship comes in
I can sleep the sleep of the just again
=)
let Your word be a lamp to my feet and a light unto my path..i want to live and look back with no regrets..
1:10 am
soak up the son
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
TOMORROWno new year resolutions yet. actually i'm personally surprised that i don't have any. well, i'm quite a planner but this time round, i've got zilchness in my resolution so far. not sure what's gonna happen cos everything suddenly seems to temporal and so surreal. is tomorrow REALLY going to be the start of the new school term? am i REALLY grown up now? what am i going to do from now on? where do i go from here? all those questions flood my mind, and the best part is that deep inside, my inner spirit is kinda flustered. can't seem to have anything to hold on to anymore, no more assurances. its as if i'm pushed to the deep end and just let go of with no warning. scary indeed. i realise that there are so many things so dear to me, so many memories will flood my heart when i walk into those school gates again at 5.30am tomorrow morning on Blackmore Drive. but those people who used to be there are just shadows and memories that i can no longer grasp. i have to be independent now, all alone to deal with this independence. i don't want to grow up... =(( but amidst all those rather sad feelings in me, i guess i've learnt to become a stronger person, to cling to Him to assurance and no one else cos really everyone has to go their own way sooner or later and the physicalities just prevent meeting up face to face. i've learnt that regretting is the most painful feeling, as though one part of you dies cos you'll never know. perhaps my new year's resolution will be to live each day with no regrets. =))over the past few days i met up with my dearest F5, choir peeps, and AHSCones. people that are so close to my heart and have impacted my life in various ways, watched me grow and protected me time and time again. words fail to express my gratitude and thanks for each one of you. i wouldn't know where and what i'd be without you and i truely thank God for each of you. =))rightios. guess i'll be off to bed now. long day tomorrow.. can't wait to start educating curious young minds. haha.
WORLD PEACE!!
teach me how to teach..
10:36 pm
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Monday, January 01, 2007
WELCOME TO 2007!!!woo hoo! its a brand new year ahead!
well its come to my realisation today that there really is so much in store for me. and i being silly ole me, just looked past all the good things the past year. a tinge of regret, but i'm gonna make it right this year round, with Him being my lead. i realised that i, (like othello.. hahahaha) 'like the base indian threw away the pearl worth more than his tribe'. heh.
i guess i have to really lean on Him this year round. i'm gonna be on my own now, all grown up, independent woman. its not gonna be easy, but its the only way. and i really hope the job goes well cos i really wanna do such a great job, empowering young women with education.. the most precious gift that a girl can ever dream of receiving (quote Queen of Jordan). hahaha. yess.. call me Miss Ang. =))
okayy i'm pretty tired now i shall continue tomorrow. nights.
2:40 am
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