Tuesday, October 31, 2006
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I’ll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I’m carried in everlasting arms
You’ll never let me go
Through it all
=)
9:20 pm
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Monday, October 30, 2006
Psalm 34
I will extol the LORD at all times; his praise will always be on my lips.
My soul will boast in the LORD; let the afflicted hear and rejoice.
Glorify the LORD with me; let us exalt his name together.
I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.
Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.
This poor man called, and the LORD heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles.
The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them.
Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
Fear the LORD, you his saints, for those who fear him lack nothing.
The lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.
Come, my children, listen to me; I will teach you the fear of the LORD.
Whoever of you loves life and desires to see many good days,
keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking lies.
Turn from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it.
The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous and his ears are attentive to their cry;
the face of the LORD is against those who do evil, to cut off the memory of them from the earth.
The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
A righteous man may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all;
he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken.
Evil will slay the wicked; the foes of the righteous will be condemned.
The LORD redeems his servants; no one will be condemned who takes refuge in him.
11:52 pm
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perhaps you will never understand the meaning of protecting the people whom your love because you don't have to ability to.
11:29 pm
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Saturday, October 28, 2006
woke up today feeling really really dizzy and feverish. roar. slept in the living room the whole night while my momsy was watching some korean show till 4 am this morning. hence the acute neck ache when i eventually roused from the sofa. =(
less than a week till the start of As. *cold sweat* but well, my motto now is 'to persevere is to win'. so ALL THE WAY!!
meanwhile, i've been trying also to arrange some prom stuff so i won't have to start fretting on the 24th after my paper and can relax about the whole prom thingy. call me a kiasu pok but i'm not exactly a last minute person. haha. yeappers.
time to go back to the books now. toodles.
Living in my own world
Didn't understand
That anything can happen
When you take a chance
I never believed in
What I couldn't see
I never opened my heart
To all the possibilities
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
And right here tonight
This could be the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new
Now who'd of ever thought that
We'd both be here tonight
And the world looks so much brighter
With you by my side
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
I know it for real
9:21 pm
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Friday, October 27, 2006
am i really me?
perhaps this studying period has really changed me. i've become intolerable and unreasonable and sometimes even i can't stand myself: my selfishness and my pride. i've become unable to love some people that i used to be able to so easily. instead, i exchange that love for detest and distance myself away from them.
argh. should i even be thinking about this now? perhaps not. because i have no time to think about such things. no time at all.
all i have left is to persevere and finish this race before me..
yet i'm just so shattered by the things that have been happening recently and my unacceptable behaviour that irks me so badly when i even think about it.
roar. selfish thoughts again.. =(
help Lord.. what should i do? where should i go? i'm just so conflicted. where has the real
me gone to?? what is this??? it seems like everything has gone wrong. and even i have gone haywire.
this sucks big time.
God be in my head and in my understanding
9:51 pm
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Philippians 3:12-16:
"Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you. Only let us live up to what we have already attained."
11:57 pm
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Tuesday, October 24, 2006
today was a tiring day.
didn't do much work tho. a bit disappointed.
leftlong day tomorrow. sigh.
Vivocity was quite a letdown. most stores were like closed. wth.
haha. tired now so i'm quite angsty. pardon me.
thanks for your call dear. it really made my day. =)
11:35 pm
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Sunday, October 22, 2006
woo hoo. great studying day today at matthew's house! *jumps around happily*
its been such a long time since we all gathered together and had some fellowship. feeling all nice and warm now as i think about it. hahaha. tho it was only like 7 of us. hahaha. it was great.
enjoyed myself so much studying with ethel and cheryl and doing lit till we were sprawling on the floor. haha. and then cheryl eavesdropping on matthew and bev's conversations. haha. all the tat-glam moments and the wonderful dinner made with love by matthew's mother. and then reminescing about the old days when we were still in school. wow whee. yeah.
=)
12:34 am
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Friday, October 20, 2006
yet another busy day...
pardon my emoness in the previous entries. guess this is the october low. haha.
but oh wells. i've come to realise again today that i can only put my hope in God and no one else. cos man really does fail.. yeah.
give me the strength Lord to carry on even when it seems like i can't seem to move from here. give me the ability to love even when it hurts and heal my heart when its torn apart.
11:19 pm
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Thursday, October 19, 2006
to you
you probably don't know that i've been thinking about you so much
thinking so much about the things we've done together
and just realising that though its just been such a short while
i miss you so much..
i can be who i am without being pretentious when i'm with you
i can just be plain ole me
and i know that you accept me for the person i am
and i just know that you will always be there for me.
i think only you can make me cry when i think about you in times of solitude..
11:03 pm
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Saturday, October 14, 2006
"Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize." 1 Corinthians 9: 26, 27
10:16 pm
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Friday, October 13, 2006
it feels as if there's a hole in the part where my heart used to be.
it feels as tho its impossible to move from here.
help.
give me strength Lord, to face tomorrow cos i'm so tired and my heart is shattered beyond repair. Sinto saudade tuas..
9:52 am
soak up the son
Monday, October 09, 2006
i was sure by now
that you would have reached down
and wiped our tears away
stepped in and saved the day
but once again, i say "amen", and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
i barely hear your whisper through the rain
"i'm with you"
and as you mercy falls
i raise my hands and praise the god who gives
and takes away
i'll praise you in this storm
and i will life my hands
for you are who you are
no matter where i am
every tear i've cried
you hold in your hand
you never left my side
and though my heart is torn
i will praise you in this storm
i remember when
i stumbled in the wind
you heard my cry
you raised me up again
my strength is almost gone
how can i carry on
if i can't find you
as the thunder rolls
i barely hear you whisper through the rain
"i'm with you"
and as your mercy falls
i raise my hands and praise the god who gives
and takes away
i lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
my help comes from the lord
the maker of heaven and earth
remind me that i live for Your glory alone. remind me that i am not my own. cos i am Yours.
11:40 pm
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Sunday, October 08, 2006
its october... roar!!
a month nearer to the big As. i told E today that i finally know why the A levels are called the A levels: cos they are really VERY advanced. not to mention that getting an A is also VERY impossible. argh.
had a busy day today.. went to Wesley today with nat and had so much fun with her awesome cell group!!! =) it was really great. i love nat's cell group. the dynamics are just fab. and her cell leader, Gary, is just so funny!!! played the 'Talk-Cock' game with them. my first attempt at talking cock was not too bad. haha. tho it was less than a minute. sigh. fish and gary clocked at least 5 minutes. hehe. cool game. the brunch was great: sandwiches, muffins, biscuits, cheese, mooncake, etc etc. not to mention the ants who were busily scurrying around attempting to grab something from our picnic mats and constantly attacking my precious Converses.
then after that i headed down to E's place to study math and revise some stuff. brain got fried. then E went for ballet and then i went back home.
its been quite a busy week. next week is gonna be even worse i think. haha. all those lil mock exams. pardon me, but every time i think of mock exams i remember ms leow saying: 'we kill you with prelims first.. later then we mock you.' haha. quite random.
just thinking about the 4 subjects i have and the lack of time gives me these constant jerks of fear. the thought of dropping one sub or my S paper is constantly lingering in my mind. but then there's the other side that keeps going: don't give up. its not worth it giving up now.
the haze has cleared today!! finally. after like 2 horrid days of unhealthy haze in our sunny island, i can finally see things outside my window clearly. haha. still, what baffled me most during those 2 days was that the haze was already so bad, and people were still playing with sparklers for mooncake festival. what's worse, others were still smoking!! like... isn't it smelly enough already?! can't you hear your lungs screaming for help?? haha. clowns.
oh wells. i guess its time to go back to my books. being associated to books and nerdism has become the highest compliment. haha.
deep inside me.. i'm very very worried. if i had only one wish, it would be to see you truely smile again.
7:06 pm
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