Friday, June 30, 2006
choir tour to wales starts today..
i hope 12 days pass really really soon... haha.
rawr.
take care everybody!!
11:26 pm
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Monday, June 26, 2006
loads of things turned out wrong today.
in fact, practically everything turned out wrong.
maybe i woke up on the wrong side of bed this morning.. i wouldn't know. but yeah.
i don't want to start ranting on my blog tho. i need to find the gold in the rubbish...
Lord, i commit it all to You. i know You are in control.so as for now, i will... =)
thank you. for pointing me to the light in the darkness.when you don't understand
when you can't see his plan
when you can't trace his hand
trust His heart
8:25 pm
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Saturday, June 24, 2006
i finally finished my first lit essay which i've been working on for the past 2 days. rawr. one down and 3 more to go... T.T
had a nice chat with ethel and cheryl at Mos during lunch. its been a long time babes.. haha.
then we did a bit of accidental retail therapy. okay, i started it... my fault. hahahahahaha. XP
me and cheryl got free gelatos today. hahaha... i think she wanted to kill me for taking so long to decide on my flavour. but in the end, i still chose 'Strawberry' tho 'Yogurt' and 'Cookies and Creme' were tempting me.. =)
yeap. last day of the hols tomorrow... hmmm... not too sure how to feel.
i've been really PMS-ey the whole day. this ain't good.
And all the roads that lead to you were windingAnd all the lights that light the way are blindingThere are many things that I would like to say to youI don't know how ... i really don't. but i will wait for Daddy God.. in His time.
10:24 pm
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Thursday, June 22, 2006
you know the holidays are coming to a close when your good friends start smsing things like
'how many pieces of homework did sir give us arh?' or
'do you think madam will mind if we type our essays?' hahahaha... yes, its quite funny. the holidays are ending syndrome. hahahaha... maybe we should all dust the piles of work from under our bed sheets and behind the doors... hahaha... yes yes, i haven't done most of my homework either and here i am typing this entry. LOL.
mango sale is on today and well, due to the fact that my homework is hardly even touched at all, i can't go. sigh. hahaha.. oh well, have fun snatching those items girls!!! hahahaha...
i'm quite proud of myself cos this morning i went downstairs to this mini gym area downstairs to work out.
oh my goodness, esther ang is working out?!?!?! *gasp gasp*
YES. and i say that loud and proud cos all that slacking as turned me into a lard bucket of some sort. and i need to save myself before i turn into some giant couch potato. hahahahaha. yeap. mr. sun came out and he smiled at me today... hahahaha... so i laid on the sit-ups area at the outdoor gym thingie and absorbed a fair amount of vitamin D. eventually i had to get up cos the sun rays were really strong today and it started to roast the metal plank which i was lying on. haha. it soon became a bit too warm for my liking. muahahahaha...
yeaps. that's about it. need to go out later. rawr... hahahahaha. hopefully i can do all my homework by today. *twists fingers behind back* XD
ciao...
i miss you... =((If you get there before I do, don't give up on meI'll meet you when my chores are through;I don't know how long I'll beBut I'm not gonna let you down...
2:37 pm
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Wednesday, June 21, 2006
woots... inline skating adventure at our squeaky clean East Coast Park beach today!!! =) it was fun fun fun... hahahaha. tho i think heng yi has serious doubts that i have ever skated before (eh, i have okay...), either that or he is totally convinced that i have lost all my blading skills whatsoever. and he was quite bad cos he couldn't stop laughing at my inability to balance or glide or stop.. rawr. hahahaha... seriously. after nearly an hour of squealing and screaming and shouts of
'HENG YI!!! HELPPPPPPPP!!!!' i think he has enough of blading and me for a long long while. muahahahahaha... so just wanna say sorry, and thank you so much
KOR KOR.. =P hahahaha. well well, nic brought his own skates so he didn't have much trouble with anything... well, i'm sure he had a good time teaching a certain someone how to skate, and the certain someone had a fun time learning attentively from her wonderful teacher too... hahahahaha... yeap yeap. the weather was great today... sunshine throughtout. YAY!!! tho i didn't get much of a tan, its all right. hahahaha... then we headed to Changi Airport for dinner. heng yi went to send his church friend off... oooooo... hahahaha. *wink wink* whee... i can still feel myself gliding as i walk around the house. hahahaha...
me and nad before blading.
me and heng yi kor, after blading!! tired but happy. haha... yes i am very happy. at least i managed to glide a little bit more today after nearly getting knocked down by X number of cyclists and Y number of other bladers. muahahahaha... i survived unscathed!!! =)
9:57 pm
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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
tiring day.
early morning tuition plus the constant need to curb myself from putting food into that mouth of mine is strangely making me very tired.
rawr. what's wrong with me?
maybe i just need my bed... yet, i lay awake till the wee hours of the morning... sigh.
so kiss me and smile for metell me that you'll wait for mehold me like you'll never let me goSomeone holds me safe and warm.Horses prance through a silver storm.Figures dancing gracefullyAcross my memory...
11:43 pm
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Monday, June 19, 2006
rawr. my hair smells really really good. mmmmmm...
did i mention that i love a certain puppy? hahahaha... shoooo
cute... =)
can you please tell me what to do, cos i'm a bit lost now...
7:15 pm
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Sunday, June 18, 2006
i just watched the world's sweetest show.. *drum roll*
THE TERMINAL!!!gosh.. everyone has to watch that show. i'm still savouring the sweetness of that awesome show.. mmmm..
anyways, i'm going to cut hair tomorrow!! yay. finally. hahaha.
and i'm going with *snare drums*
SML!! hahahahaha. yes, i never quite dreamed that this day will come. XP
but oh well, i'm expecting quite an interesting hair cut experience tomorrow. lol. buahahahaha.
10:03 pm
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long day today. dead tired.
tonight was bad.. i don't know why i went theretuition at 9am.. gosh, i had to really dig myself out of bed.
but i don't want to anymore. ever again.after that it was off to grandma's house. haha.
help Lord. teach me what to do in such situations..but the highlight of the day was when i went for choir in the evening.
i totally regret getting into the car..that was when i realised that i really miss the juniors and the music so so much...
forgive me Lord, for i did not know what i was doing..i don't even know how to use words to describe how i felt when i stepped into the HR once again... it felt so... comfortable. like how you feel when you wear that favourite shirt, or your favourite PJs... just so at home.
my beautiful evening was spoilt by what happened at 11pm. argh.and then seeing the faces that i miss so so dearly and how they have grown... my my... =)
tho not all the J2s were there, actually most weren't, but it was great seeing everyone again at our favourite place: the HR. hahaha.
we sang again. first with the juniors, then on our own outside the HR.
those wrods are still echoing in my head..
'Someday soon we all will be together, if the Lord allows. Until then we'll have to muddle through somehow... somehow...'passion. integrity. love. =)
12:43 am
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Friday, June 16, 2006
MUSE. A NIGHT TO REMEMBER
whee... band concert last night was rather interesting... hahaha. yeap. met up with ting, xizhen, gerrard, alvin mun and ethel yesterday and we went to support Daniel and Brendan. =) haha. yeaps. and Daniel was messaging us on stage?!?! hahahaha... quite funny. anyways, great job on your solo Daniel!! tho as i type this, you are probably in Aussieland somewhere out there. but nonetheless. hahaha. actually, i thought last night was a good catch up session for AHSCones and friends who went. yeah. tho there were only a handful of us and the rest are at GYLC or on holiday or just plain refuse to come (you know who you are! hahahaha.) yeapps. i sat next to xizhen during the concert and we had quite a fun time laughing at practically everything. haha... and there was a STRANGE ONE who was sitting not too far away from us conducting... O.O. haha. oh well. i shall say no more. time for peeektuures. =)
quite cool yes? hahah... did i mention that we were sitting at the first 2 rows cos we wanted to watch Daniel? hahahahaha. yes Daniel, we love you so.
the solo jolo. hahaha... tho this wasn't taken during his solo. buahaahha.
US. hahahaha... i just realised that its a bit dark... hmmm.. btw, daniel please do not do anything to your copy of this photo. >.<
=)
at Glutton's Bay after the concert. yes, we were really famished. cheers to the most awesome Hokkien Mee made on the face of this earth. hahahaa.
me and ting!
me and xizhen, who looks surprised!! hahahaha...
me and gerrard!! who was very late for his match last night... ok, lame. hahahah.
alvin mun... who refused to take a photo... =.='' darren's face is super funny!!!
yeappers. that's it for now. haha. not to mention we had quite a bit of trouble getting a cab home at 11.30pm. we were all like dead tired and the cabs just refused to come. thankfully, we managed to all get home safe and sound. =)
gosh, i love you all!! haha.
10:55 am
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
went swimming (or more like play water) yesterday with yihui, frances and joel at the ACJC Sports Complex!!! hahahaha. yes, we are finally using the school facilities which we paid $40 for. haha. i actually wanted to get a tan, but Mr. Sun refused to show his face for more than a few minutes. sigh. but its all right. i had quite a bit of fun. haha. haven't actually gone swimming in a looooonnnng loooonnnngggg while. haha. me and frances were playing in the smaller pools while yihui and joel were doing laps. hahaha...
i was so so tired when i got home.... haha. yeap. i slept
REALLY early. but i woke up to the horrible drilling upstairs that's been making such a racket these few days.
my cousin lent me this super-dee-duper-dee nice VCD. gosh... i can't stop watching. hahahaha... its one of those taiwanese serials that just get you hooked. XP
oh well... time for lunch. =)
i really miss you
Wouldn't it be nice if we were olderThen we wouldn't have to wait so long
1:59 pm
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Monday, June 12, 2006
The Road not Taken - Robert Frost
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
and sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
and looked down one as far as I could
to where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
and having perhaps the better claim
because it was grassy and wanted wear;
though as for that, the passing there
had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
in leaves no feet had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less travelled by,
and that has made all the difference
i want you to know that ________
i will wait
Daddy God, i need You. now and always. Without You, my life wouldn't be complete. Thank you for the Comforter, who dried every tear on my face and put joy in my heart again. if not, i'd be going stark mad this moment. Teach me to trust You heart, even when i can't see Your plans. =)
11:28 pm
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Sunday, June 11, 2006
broken beyond recognition...
why won't my heart stop hurting?who am i?
why is my mind killing me with all sorts of thoughts?can i be who i am again?
i'm becoming such a freak.why am i even like that?
Lord, i'm so tired. i need you to carry me.
its all my fault... everything...please pick me up. cos i can't get up Daddy God.
can someone just shoot me please?help...
you will never understand the hurts inside.
9:40 pm
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have u ever woken up and felt like u are gonna be having the worst day ever in your life? then after that the rest of your day is just crapped up and nothing works out?
well... its my turn today.
Lord, please stop the tears... cos i can't.
7:52 pm
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busy day today..
who is that girl i see...
woke up quite late due to the severe lack of sleep last night or rather this morning. haha.
staring straight back at me?yes, i only got to bed at 3 am last night. >.<
why is my reflection someone i don't know?but oh well, as i type this, i'm still sniffing and my throat is still clogged with phlegm. roar.
why are there tears hidden behind that smile?went to school and then to grandma's house...
why can't the tears stop?i must say i haven't been to my granny's house in a looooonnngggg while. haha.
Lord... help. i'm tired.my momsy said she hardly recognises me and she forgot my name today when i went... referring to me only as my-dad's-daughter.
its so hard... and i can hardly go on.but well, i guess its my fault that she can hardly remember who i am. its really been a terribly long time since i last visited her.
but teach me Lord to trust and believe , even when my heart breaks,hopefully i get to see her more often now, like i used to during my secondary school days.
teach me to love unconditionally,then off i went to meet my xiao di. =)
and give me courage Daddy God even when i feel insecure,we had a nice time talking and walking aimlessly around Orchard before settling down for dinner.
give me strength when i feel that i can't hold on or go on any longer,then he went to meet his 'friend'... XP. hahaha. xiao di and 'friend' are so adorable.
give me patience, to wait....yeappers. then i went home.
i know You are moulding me Lord.i actually saw heng yi bro rushing like some crazy man at Somerset Station.
so take me and mould me.he somemore dao me... hahaha. was tempted to go and watch Da Vinci Code with him but then it was very late le and my parents would have my head if i didn't hurry along home. haha.
guide me, Daddy God, even through this time.LOL. anyway, my legs are aching like nobody's business now. i think i severely lack exercise. roar.
don't ever let me go.tired. i shall go and sleep now. *sniff sniff*
i'll wait... ... even if it takes forever.Into a secret placeI will runWhere my heart can be freeIn the grace that I found
1:29 am
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Saturday, June 10, 2006
AHRed at the Night Safari
on the 15th of June, our little class decided to head down to the Night Safari since we had free admission passes from Fun-O-Rama...
Us before we went in. As you can see, there were only 9 of us then (deb, andrea, erica, amaria, zhu, aiysah, ethel, me and madame)... the Beh siblings came an hour later.the rest were... MIA. T.T
aiysah and me before our lil adventure. =)
and so we had a tiring but eventful night. the cats in the Night Safari are just gorgeous. woosh. hahaha. yeap. we had quite a fun time with madam, walking on the trails here and there. ethel was supposed to be our tour guide but somehow it didn't exactly work out. haha. yeaps. siamz had an encounter with the leopard, who gave him the EYE. ahahahaha... and we managed to get a free tram ride from the East Lodge back to the main entrance cos the whole group of us met this cute and very very nice Night Safari guide called Charles. and he said that the tram people will give us a free ride as long as we mention his name. and si this was what happened...
Us: *extremely thankful and happy* oh my goodness, that Charles person is SO nice... wow...
Madam: *leads the way toward the tram ride counter*
Siamz: *from the back* FRIEND OF CHARLES!!! *raises hand and waves wildly*
Us: =.=''
yes... Siamz ah... sigh. your skin is like oh-so-thick. hahahaha. his sister Sarah came along with us for our lil tour and i think Madam has concluded that she is tons more intellectual that a certain someone who shares her surname. haha. at least she doesn't keep bashing Madam about her veggie diet. haha. yeaps. so we had a really eventful night which ended with a little treat to Ben & Jerry's since the rest of the food at the Night Safari was as good as daylight robbery. after which we all went our seperate ways and headed home.
me on 138 with the Beh siblings... Siamz and Sarah.
My finger and Zhu who was extremely tired. and got woken up by the bright flash light from my camera on the bus.
me and debbie, who is impossible to wake up. we had to shake her really hard to awake her from her slumber. buahahaha.
me and ethel. =)
and so concludes our Night Safari adventure.
9:56 pm
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Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
where there is
hatred,
let me sow love;
where there is
injury,
pardon;
where there is
doubt,
faith;
where there is
despair,
hope;
where there is
darkness,
light;
and where there is
sadness,
joy.
O Divine Master,grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;to be understood, as to understand;to be loved, as to love;for it is in giving that we receive,it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.Amen.
st. francis of assisi - 13th century
=)
12:32 am
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Thursday, June 08, 2006
I may not always love you
But long as there are stars above you
You never need to doubt it
I'll make you so sure about it
God only knows what I'd be without you
If you should ever leave me
Though life would still go on, believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would living do me?
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows what I'd be without you
If you should ever leave me
Though life would still go on, believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would living do me?
God only knows what I'd be without
you
11:29 pm
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i woke up this morning and realised that i am
sick.
yes, i thought i'd get better after eating quite a few cepacols yesterday and taking a short nap in the aftenoon, but no. it didn't help. in fact,
its worse. gosh... i woke up unable to say a word and unable to breathe cos my whole throat was so choked with phlegm. best part was, i realised that i had already built a mini Mount Everest on my study table last night with the amount of tissue i used to stop the leaking tap of my nose.
i don't even know why i'm this sick. gosh. all i ever did was eat a Ben & Jerry's Strawberry Shortcake ice cream last night at the Night Safari. roar. i hope i didn't pass any germs to Zhu or Debbie cos they dug their spoons into my ice cream. >.<
sobs.
and now i'm wondering if i should go to school and study today cos i really have to catch up with work... but that means i'd have to bring a lot of tissue to school and i'm broke so i'd have to make my own lunch or pack some food. argh. very mah fan... haha. well, ask me why i hate to see doctors and i give u the same reply, 'Don't want. very mah fan.'
and as i type this, my head is getting dizzy, my ear has decided to block itself out and my nose is blocked too. *sniff sniff*
argh. i hate being sick.
its especially in times like this that i miss you... yes you.
10:18 am
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Wednesday, June 07, 2006
okay, i admit.
I AM SICK. my nose has een running like some leaking tap ever since i came home from lunch, and i've been stuck to the tissue box ever since.. argh... it sucks being sick. =( *sniff sniff*
i feel dizzy. maybe i should go and lie down for a while..
4:04 pm
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I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside
your heaven
When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven
=)
3:27 pm
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above
I've been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said
10:50 am
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Monday, June 05, 2006
A Tribute to the JOLOs:to the group of people that i treasure so much...
thank you for showing me how to smile when i frowned,
for lending a shoulder when i needed to cry,
for praying for me when i was troubled,
for always assuring me that you'll always stand by me,
for supporting me in my passion,
for being that listening ear,
for watching me as i grow... and growing along with me.
for all the tears and joys that we experience, thank you... each and every one of
you.
life would have been so different without you.
love always.
4:22 pm
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CIP at East Coast Park today!!!i got to see all my wonderful classmates again. well, almost all larh. hahahaha. i didn't bring camera so i shall go and bug zhu zhu to send me the pictures she took.haha. the super tat-glam ones with my messy hair and oily face. anyway, the beach at ECP is extremely littered. i paired up with ethel and we went coming the beach with black garbage bag in one hand and plastic glove in the other. we were the beach
JOLOs. haha. thankfully only for about 2 hours. haha. and now my favourite pair of addidas shoes is
RUINED, currently black with tar and filled with sand. the best part is, i can't get the black tar off!!! roar. well, guess i'll have to start sourcing for a new pair of shoes.. anyway,
ALL U CAMPING PEOPLE... STOP LITTERING!!! whoar, the beach is like how friggin polluted with all sorts of stuff... and seriously, we found tens of thousand of random slippers and styrofoam bits and pieces, cans, plastic bags and what-have-yous. and our poor ole backs were aching like nobody's business by the time we ended. wa... those litter bugs really deserve to die larh. muahahahahaha... whoar i can't wait for wednesday man!!! =)) hahahaha. sorry, a bit high now... thinking of wednesday makes me slightly high.
since we ended relatively early, i decided to go pay clement a visit since he was quite sick. i think i gave him quite a bad shock instead. hahahahaha... passed him lunch then off i went. and now i'm dead broke cos i just went to buy other people's birthday present. argh. hahahaha. i'm seriously
broken now... my momsy just came and asked me why my bank account is dry.
sigh... how to explain leh?
vin is in school now. i'm wondering if i should go to school or not cos i'm feeling really really lazy right now... zzzzz... argh. oh all right. i shall go to school.
i really hope you are okay cos u sounded very sad. oh well, talk to you tonight.
3:31 pm
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Sunday, June 04, 2006
so tired. having sore throat. roar.
so things have to turn out this way, huh?its been a loooonnnnggggg week.
well, its your choice.had SATs today... i think i really screwed it up. argh.
i already said everything i could.i was really sad today i had to miss a lil party... sigh. =(
i'm tired. i need a break from all this.tomorrow's gonna be yet another long day.
cos waiting for you is likegosh.
waiting for rain in this drought;tears....
useless and disappointing.
12:28 am
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