Wednesday, November 29, 2006
ITS TIME TO PARTYtoday was the majoy party day. hahaha. and boy am i exhausted. anyways, my day out of the house started when i met up with yihui, jon tang and nad for lunch at Westmall where i had my all time favourite BAN MIAN at Koufu!! =D then me and yi hui headed to Jurong Point where i was his fashion consultant for prom. speaking of which, i have been accompanying the guys out to shop for their prom stuff all too often already and i haven't gotten MY OWN stuff!! i still have things unbought larh. who wants to go with me? boo hoo... hahaha. anyways, had a fruitful trip and we managed to get everything settled by the time we left at around 3.30pm.
then after that i went home to change and dress up cos it was some glam theme and well the juniors deserve our support yes? haha. and then despite the rain and all i chionged down to
CHOIR PARTY in a cab!! woo hoo. been kinda looking forward to meeting up and catching up with all the long lost choir peeps after the A levels. was glad to see many many many familiar faces and i was just so happy to be home.
home is where the heart is. haha. yeah. so anyways, not everyone is my section came but i managed to catch up with those who did. did i mention that i saw mrs wilson when i was leaving and i HUGGED her?? hahaha. i was so happy after that cos i really miss her to bits and pieces. XP
sadly, i had to leave at 7.35pm after having a bit of dinner and the awesome cheesy veggies cos i had arranged to meet mrs lim, mrs goh, ms bong and the other teachers with F5 on the same day at 6.30pm like months before the choir party date was settled. yeappers. it was gonna be really bad to cancel cos i wouldn't know when the teachers can make it again so i had to do a rather painful conpromise and leave. but anyways, i went there and had like TONS of fun!!! not to mention a welcome huggggg and smooch from mrs lim when i entered the house. talked with the teachers over more food and then we celebrated elaine's very very belated birthday with a slice of cake that couldn't stand up. HAHAHA. hons brought ice cream from Venezia so we had ice cream after munching and then we toasted to mrs goh being appointed as vice principle. then came the highlight when naomi played the violin for us before we left. she is so adorable!!! (unfortunately, blogger is not cooperating at the present moment so photos will come later) yeappers. dylan is so adorable too... argh. why is blogger not working? anyways, the gathering ended with mrs lim smooching us again as we left her house at the doorway and opening her house to us anytime to crash for the rest of the hols. heh heh. yeappers. AWESOME! =DD
and hence, after a very eventful and power packed day, i'm dead tired at home now typing this. tomorrow's gonna be another day of shopping for me and then maybe will meet up with nads and the choir ppl for sushi dinner or something. hahaha. all the best my sweeties for ye SAT 2s. study like mad. HAHAHAHA. i can only give u my utmost sympathy.
will upload photos soon.
till then, WORLD PEACE.
11:06 pm
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Tuesday, November 28, 2006
retail therapyyes. mega retail therapy today. went out with abel today cos he needed to get his prom stuff and i needed to do some major shopping. hehe. we met at Far East and searched for the bag shop to no avail (directions given by eugene seow. hahahaha.). then we headed to MANGO where i managed to find my BEAUTIFUL while coat. omg omg omg. its really really gorgeous. hahaha. i call it: J LO. hahahaha cos it has a semblence of the coat that j lo was wearing in Maid in Manhatten, tho i have to admit that show is really extremely lame. haha. so anyways, reserved the coat cos my account had not enough cash and my momsy promised to give some financial aid in a bit. then later we went to TOPMAN and to ZARA and to PEDRO and BEETLEBUG and X-SQUARE (again!!) to get abel's shoes, shirt and belt. hahaha. yeappers. very purposeful shopping trip it was. finally we were both kinda exhausted and hungry so at like 3 something we went to eat at Food Republic!! hahaha. food is good. anyways, after we got abel's stuff we went back to MANGO to pick up my flawless white coat. did i mentioned that i accidentally spent more than i wanted to cos i wanted to chalk up enough for the MANGO card? hahaha. XP
well, things just got even more exciting after i bade abel farewell at PS (where he went to be the ultimate lightbulb of the century by having dinner with ethel, darren, seah and debbie!! HAHAHA!). and i bounded excitedly, albeit my hurting legs cos i wore heels to shop today, to Victoria Concert Hall to meet my most beloved F5. hahaha. the band concert was okay. not very professional but i guess they were trying their best. at least i hope they were. haha. the international dance was actually choreographed really well and me and elaine really liked the choreography but then the dancers were not very in unison. actually, throughout the second half i kept wondering why they had like dance in the middle of a band concert. something extremely new to me. hehe. had fun watching anyways. not to mention we attempted to sneak into the reception area as one of the 'honoured' guests and feed our poor hungry stomachs cos most of us didn't eat dinner. the irony of it all was that we couldn't even FIND the reception area. hahaha. stupid.
anyways, after that we went for supper at Sakae Sushi cos Soup Spoon was too far off. we were all like crazily hungry so we just gobbled anything and everything we saw. hahaha. like as if we haven't eaten for the past 10 years. and subsequently went mad at Sakae Sushi and on the way home.
elaine, nat and bea on the other side of the table. don't ask me why bea is in that position. haha. its the GREEN TEA effect.
me and hons on the other side. trying to act cute and looking a bit more sane. hahaha. hons looks like she's gonna puke. XP.
as u can see, as the night progressed, we lost all sanity. haha.
so anyways, had such great fun today. and i can't wait for more tomorrow!!! choir party and dinner at mrs lim's happening AT THE SAME TIME. hahahaha. i need to split into 2. hehe. yeappers.
time to crash. to WORLD PEACE!! =)
11:53 pm
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i'm speechless cos of Your unfailing love for me time and time again. today was such a great day that words fail to describe the things that have happened. tho nothing majorly dramatic happened today, it was the peace in my inner spirit that made the ultimate difference.
met up with alvin mun to shop till we drop today. he needed to get his prom suit and i needed to buy like a kerzillion things. so we walked and walked and walked and finally we reached paragon and met up with his scone senior, alex, whom he dragged along to shop with us. haha. but anyways, so now the 3 of us headed to X-Square the shop where EVERY guy on this tiny little island has decided to get his prom suit from and we met matthew and josia. so now the group got a little bit bigger. i have to admit i finally understand how guys feel when girls drag them to shop with them at boutiques cos it was quite funny sitting there watching matthew and alvin mun parading around in their suits. me and alex were like trying to occupy ourselves and amusing ourselves with the very happy coloured ties and the random stripy shirts. hahaha. not that it was totally boring larh. it was a pretty interesting experience actually.
we were then joined by barry and ben chong and euguene at the shop cos they were looking for prom stuff too. how nice. after the 3 of them left, peter and his 2 sisters (have i mentioned that peter's younger sister is VERY pretty? haha. at least i think she is larh.) came to check out peter's prom suit. what did i tell you? haha. they left after a short while tho for greener pastures. then came ethel, darren, louis and seah, followed by daniel after his haircut at REDs which was pretty nice but he kept conplaining abt its puffy-ness. please la daniel... =.=". hahaha. but well after that me and ethel decided to abandon the boys and go down to STARBUCKS COFFEE for a drink to have our lil girl talk ourselves instead. hahaha.
after that everyone went their seperate ways and alex gave me a ride to holland v cos he was fetching alvin mun there for haircut with yazid. haha. yeappers. so there u go. my rather eventful shopping experience where i spent most of my time in X-Square and waiting around for the boys to decide on their prom outfits. roar. hahahaha. but we had a little AC reunion there so it wasn't all that bad. hehe. XP
yeappers. looking forward to doing some REAL shopping tomorrow and to meet up with my bro and darling F5. haha. can't wait!!
love you all. i think i'll try and upload some pics tomorrow cos its gonna i know tomorrow's gonna be another eventful day!!! =) got to go. time to crash..
WORLD PEACE.
1:04 am
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Sunday, November 26, 2006
woo hoo!! so many things have been happening!! aren't you all so excited to know about my awesome post A level holiday. hahaha. bet everyone's fretting about prom stuff. muahahahaha.. *nudges honyi*
anyways, yesterday i went to my gramp's house to visit them. haha. its been a longg time. heh. yeappers. but i was so tired i fell asleep on the sofa. quite embarrassing. T.T
somehow there was this lil stirring in my heart last night and this expectation of a really good service today. and LO AND BEHOLD. service today at Wesley was excellent. i really didn't regret going for it today tho my parents weren't too pleased. well, they aren't exactly very happy about me wanting to go to Wesley cos they think i'm there for the company and the friends and my purpose isn't right. but well i will keep praying and God will show them in His time that my motives are not what they think they are, cos i know that whatever i'm doing i'm right with God and cos i feel that God really speaks to me through the sermons. yeappers.. God really moved in the audi this morning and there was ministry and everything. i was really really touched by one of the songs, shall put it up in a bit. anyways it really spoke to me and my spirit regarding things that have been kinda bugging me for the past few months. haha. yeah. sermon today was great too. and it was really like Daddy God talking to me and answering all my questions that i've been asking for such a long long time. Daddy God just spoke directly to me through the sermon and it really encouraged me and moved me. so well i can confidently say that Daddy God really answers those who earnestly seek His face and are thirsty for His word. =)
after that it was like some mad shopping spree thingamajiggy. hahaha. met up with nat and e to help them search for their prom dresses. nat was very good. she spend $105 on like cleansers and cosmetics at Origins. wait till her dad looks at the bill. HAHAHA. we really shopped till we dropped today. the 3 of us were thoroughly exhausted and our knees started to buckle while we were walking. elaine almost fell backwards. hahahaha. but it was fun.. all the shrieking and walking, and looking and scrutinizing and trying out here and there and the traumatic experiences of EXPOSURE. hahaha. =P
then later met up with mun and darren and shaun who were on their way to some class dinner and were also shopping for prom before meeting my parents for dinner. it was quite embarrassing when we were leaving taka cos we didn't expect the parking fee to be like $16.50!!! daylight robbery!!! best part was that our cashcard had insufficient cash. so we were holding up a whole long line of other cars. hahahaha. not our fault. =S
yeappers. can't wait for next week. looking forward to more shopping and cell group meeting. =)
and now, for the song:
Oh Lord You've searched me
You know my way
Even when I fail You
I know You love me
Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now
You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me
And when the earth fades
Falls from my eyes
And You stand before me
I know You love me
I know You love me
You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done
WORLD PEACE!! =D
7:39 pm
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Saturday, November 25, 2006
Lord, there are so many things i don't understand..
i don't even know what to do..
feels like i'm stuck in a puddle of quick sand, sinking further and further..
but i know only You can pull me out Daddy..
Your lil girl is hurting..
please piggy back me.
when i don't understand, when i can't see Your hand, i will trust Your heart.
10:30 pm
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Friday, November 24, 2006
FREEDOM AT LAST!!
i don't know why on earth you are like that but well i guess if you are not gonna say, i'm not gonna know.
11:14 pm
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Thursday, November 23, 2006
These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
9:13 pm
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finally... tomorrow is the day. the day of freedom. hahaha... when the whole art fac whooped for joy today after lit paper, and ethel, debbie, zhu, spam, andre and the rest of the class were heading off to orchard to watch casino royale, i was secretly sobbing inside. haha. a little pang of sadness... but its all right. my turn will come. TOMORROW!!!!
actually its quite sad cos i've actually gotten into the habit of studying over the past few months, and strangely i've developed a liking for it. haha. yes i sound insane. but i'm kinda sad that its REALLY over. i think i'm mental. T.T
anyways, daniel was asking me the other day whether i had plans after my As or not. and i was like: ''yeah. duh!! like shopping... and err... shopping and err... holidaying... err...working...'' and then his response was: '' so that's it?? you are quite loser. *laughs at me for a long while then stops to think* actually, i have no plans at all. so i think i'm even more loser than you." =.=" hahaha. whatever daniel. and stop calling me smelly cos i'm not!!!
oh well, i thought that was quite interesting. i guess everyone THOUGHT that they'd have a lot of plans after the As but actually there's really nothing much that's really in store. hence i've realised that majority of my friends are spending most of their time slacking off at home doing nuts. hahaha. not that there's anything wrong with that though. on the other hand now that our exams are out of sight out of mind, we can plan our prom activities without a worry or care in the world. hehe. how wonderful.
all rights. i think i shall hit the bed for a while before dinner and then continue reading up for the paper tomorrow, which i have absolutely no clue where the venue is. HAHA.
world peace. :DD
5:10 pm
soak up the son
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
i know that you wouldn't say this to me though i've always hoped that you would. but its okay. cos i'll take the first step.
i've always wanted your love, but i only got respect. perhaps you don't know how to put it and u don't know how to express yourself. but someone has to take the first step and i'm not afraid to. cos you really mean so much to me after all that has happened. despite all the tears and anger, despite all the times when we were so close to screaming at each other and me just walking off like that, i really hope that i can hear you say those 3 precious words to me. i don't wanna miss this stage and regret..
i love you so.
i really do mommy and daddy.
1:58 pm
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Tuesday, November 21, 2006
my sister has been thoroughly irritating ever since her exams ended. she can't stop making noise, laughing, screaming, jumping around, watching tv... the list goes on. roar.
so u can imagine. there's a battle going on even at home. my sister being the home-loving sort of girl, would rather watch tv in solitude than go to her friend's house to chill. argh!!
just 3 more day. and then there will really be world peace. and my lil sister can have the house all to her self.
6:50 pm
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Monday, November 20, 2006
My Father, I adore You more
than anything my heart could wish for
I just want you
And Jesus, my beloved Saviour
Everything I am I owe to You
I owe it all to You
And angels come and adore You
And we Your children worship You
You are my world
You are my God
And I lay down my life for You
You are my Lord
The One I love
No one could ever take Your place
And everything I have
I give to You, my Lord, the One I live for
I live for You
And all my days are gifts from You
I pray I'd use them as You want me to
Use them for you
'Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.' - Galations 1:10
after this week, i'll be smiling like a pig. =)
till then, world peace.
9:47 am
soak up the son
Friday, November 17, 2006
today i finish my last paper for the week.
boy am i tired. zzzz... thank you daddy God for pulling me thru this week. seemed like mission impossible on monday, but when i look back today i can only smile a big smile and say thank you.
after all those papers, i really think the chances of me getting into the course of my choice in uni is highly impossible. yes, call me a worry wart, but i really can't help worrying. so sue me if u want. just having a reality check. but of course, i still pray and trust that whatever happens, its cos Daddy has great plans for me. =)
oh well, today is the first day in a really long time i stepped into Orchard Road. yes, my BELOVED Orchard Road. i realise that
its only when people lose something that they really learn to appreciate having it around. haha. yes, esther has gotten quite a bit of enlightenment and insight from all that mugging. so i sashayed along the streets of Orchard Road this evening while i was out for dinner with my family. everything was so christmas-ey that i'm starting to get into that Christmas festive mood too. but no no no, i have to snap out of it by tonight. tomorrow is a back to studying again. weh weh.
so many things on my mind, and i feel so liberated that i don't feel like studying anymore.. hahaha. dreams are sweet. but well, i've decided that the first thing i'm gonna do when i'm done with exams is: *drum roll* GO AND CUT MY FRIGGIN LONG HAIR. yes, my fringe is no longer counted as a fringe.. its grown way too long. my sis tried to make me jealous today by visiting her stylist and getting her hair cut cos today's her last paper. pffffttt. whatever. my turn will come. heh heh.
wow, i just realised that life after exams are going to be packed packed packed. i wanna make myself busy anyways, can help to numb the soul a bit. perhaps i finally understand why workaholics are able to sustain themselves. haha. well, i'm definitely NOT a workaholic. contrary to that, esther is a big shoppaholic. retail therpy NEVER fails. haha. trust me.
this is really random, but my stomach has been GROWLING relentlessly since this afternoon. seriously, i'm starting to believe that i've some stomach problems. i promise i ate. i ate SO MUCH for dinner which happened like 3 to 4 hours ago?? why is my stomach still growling??? *growl* roar.
yeappers yeappers. all rightios. time to bathe and have a good nice deep sleep. hopefully no more nightmares. haha.
still missing you a lot. but well.. sigh. praying for you. love always.
till later, WORLD PEACE!! =)
*my new motto, from watching Miss Congeniality for the 10 billionth time on HBO. haha. snort.*
10:42 pm
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Thursday, November 16, 2006
barely mnaged to survive this week. all the papers came flooding in all at once.
i'm so tired. slept at 12 and woke up at 4 this morning just to study geog paper 2. yet, the paper turned out so crappy that i seriously wanted to hide in some corner and cry. its gonna be a joke if i do better for geog S that the actually paper. i'm really disappointed. yeah, i guess no point crying over spilled milk, but its just that sometimes it ain't so easy to get over it.
sigh.
i don't know. i guess i'll continue doing my best for the other papers. i can really say that i did all i could for this geog paper and its been a feat that i've been able to survive this week. yes, only by His grace and Him carrying me thru this. 8 essays, 6 drqs, 1 mcq, 1 case study so far. tomorrow, it'll make 10 essays. gosh, how does a normal human being write 10 essays in a week. roar.
after all those bloody exam battles, i've been getting a lot of nightmares. perhaps i'm starting to experience a pseudo-war experience, where in Regen and First World War Poetry, soldiers just keep getting haunted by all those traumatic and psychologically devastating side effects of war. haha. its a war out there all right. yeap, right in the ACJC Sports Complex. been getting really bad nightmares. lets just say that ever since the exams started i haven't exactly even slept properly. the symptoms of war neurosis are appearing. haha.
i've come to realise that sometimes even the most mature person can get childish, even the strongest person can be weak, even the most understanding of people can be unreasonable, and the most knowledgable can be unsure. yet, some people just fail to realise that. am i not just human too? made of the same flesh, blood and bones as the next person standing on the streets. but no, perhaps i'm expected to know everything and to figure out for myself what on earth is going on. sigh. seriously, how will i know what's wrong if no one says anything??? i'm really not God. i don't want to be God anyways. not that i don't want to be Christ-like. i just NOT God.
too many things have happened. guess after this week i can finally breathe a little and start picking up some of the pieces that have been broken for a long time.
when ethel said that we'd go out for lunch today, it suddenly came to my realisation that i haven't heard or said the 2 sacred words 'GO OUT' for a long time. haha. epitomy of deprivation. sad case.
this is so emo and melancholic. sigh. but i'm not gonna pretend to be happy and that everything is okay when well, life hasn't exactly been a bed of roses. not that i'll start trumpeting to the world my woes and worries, i mean
NO i won't even do that. hahaha. this entry serves the pure and simple purpose of a little catharsis. yeappers.
paper tomorrow. perhaps i shall go and rediscover my annotation prowress now. hahaha.
till next time, WORLD PEACE. =)
5:01 pm
soak up the son
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
So say goodbyeBut don't you cry Cos true love never dies
7:16 pm
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
heaven gates are not so highly arched
as princes palaces: they that enter
must go upon their knees
miss you.
5:40 pm
soak up the son
Saturday, November 11, 2006
studying is driving me nuts!! haha.
i hope you all are doing good and fighting strong my sweets. thinking of you guys all the time. press on and we will make it! quote nat: BE STRONG. hahaha. take care my loves.
remember those days not so long ago:
when we'd hang out at a certain hon's house and play SIMS 2 till the cows came home
and we'd put aside our busy till can die schedules to meet up at Brekos and just go mad
our little adventures around lovely Singapore
and making teachers' day cards together at queen bea's house
so we can make it my sweeties!! just have to choing very hard and occasionally take a moment to chill like the enlightened one in the background.
lub chew girls so!! huggs.
=)
10:11 am
soak up the son
Thursday, November 09, 2006
i remember that time when me and my best friend cried and cried in sec 3 when this piece of crap of a FISH scolded me for plaiting my hair along the corridor and forced my best friend who was a prefect to book me for it. i'll never forget what she told me after that. she said she didn't cry cos she was scared. she cried cos we were blamed for something that was really dumb and it wasn't even our fault. we were totally being maligned that day. traumatic experience for us both.
its not easy to squeeze tears out of me. not one of those korean dramas that thousand of girls were crying buckets over made me drop a single tear. but i really get upset when people don't believe me. belief, faith, confidence. something that is intangible, yet something so vital to me. i don't understand, do i have something written across my forehead that says: 'i'm totally unbelievable'? seems like that's the case. its been disappointing. and really heartbreaking. even people whom i really care about are being like that.
sometimes i wonder: if i was ever wronged, will there be just one person in the entire world (other than God) who will believe that i didn't do it? guess not. perhaps that why my confidence in Man has diminshed to zilch-ness. and i have to protect what's left of my heart from the doubts that are constantly surrounding me.
i guess at the end of the day i'll just be left standing in the rain. alone.
i can't see His plans but i will trust His heart.
wouldn't it be nice if we were older then we wouldn't have to wait so long..
10:30 pm
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Sunday, November 05, 2006
There was a girl I knew
Who always wanted to
Be the one to stand out from the crowd
Always believed that she
Was gonna live for dreams
That what went down was gonna come around
For all the doubters, non-believers
The cynical that once were dreamers
One of these days you'll open up your eyes
And you'll realize
That girl was a one-time teenage drama queen
A hot, tough everyday wannabe
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild child dreamer
But she'll find herself
'cause she believes in nothing else
Then you'll look back when you won't believe
That girl was me
Armed with an attitude that she knows how to use
She's gonna get there any way she can
Now she knows what she wants
No one is gonna stop her
Nothing's ever gonna hold her back
4:59 pm
soak up the son
Saturday, November 04, 2006
"You don't get to call me a whore. When I met you, I thought I had found the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I was done. So all the boys, and all the bars, and all the obvious daddy issues, who cared? Because I was done. You left me. You chose Addison. I'm all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke. You don't get to call me a whore."
- Dr Meredith Grey, 'Grey's Anatomy'
11:46 pm
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Thursday, November 02, 2006
Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.
Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.
Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.
Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.
High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.
my heart hurts Lord. but let me look nowhere else except at You.
7:08 pm
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elaine, nat and bea on the other side of the table. don't ask me why bea is in that position. haha. its the GREEN TEA effect.
