Friday, September 29, 2006
to love and create unity even in times like these..
teach me how Lord.
8:28 pm
soak up the son
Thursday, September 28, 2006
i thought that i'd be on the road to recovery after 6 days of being sick, but no... my hoarse voice just proves one point: i'm STILL sick. roar.
i really don't like being sick. can't do any work. my mind is so tired that my emotions just run haywire. i currently have the memory similar to that of a goldfish, and i've been looking so sickly and pale its starting to scare me. seriously, i've never looked in the mirror and to my horror go: 'IS THAT ME?!' haha.
but despite that, i know that wallowing in self-pity is no point and most importantly, its very immature. yeah. well, thankfully God is always there for me, and i know that if i wanna throw a tantrum, i will throw it at His feet and then He will help me get through it all. yeappers.
i love you so much Lord. thank you for wiping away my tears when i cried and embracing me with your everlasting love.21 So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me.
22 For in my inner being I delight in God's law;
23 but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members.
24 What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death?
25 Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.
okay, back to studying.. feeling all inspired to do work now. hehe.
9:30 pm
soak up the son
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Psalms 31
1 In you, O LORD, I have taken refuge; let me never be put to shame; deliver me in your righteousness.
2 Turn your ear to me,come quickly to my rescue; be my rock of refuge, a strong fortress to save me.
3 Since you are my rock and my fortress, for the sake of your name lead and guide me.
4 Free me from the trap that is set for me, for you are my refuge.
5 Into your hands I commit my spirit; redeem me, O LORD, the God of truth.
6 I hate those who cling to worthless idols; I trust in the LORD.
7 I will be glad and rejoice in your love, for you saw my affliction and knew the anguish of my soul.
8 You have not handed me over to the enemy but have set my feet in a spacious place.
9 Be merciful to me, O LORD, for I am in distress; my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and my body with grief.
10 My life is consumed by anguish and my years by groaning; my strength fails because of my affliction, and my bones grow weak.
11 Because of all my enemies, I am the utter contempt of my neighbors; I am a dread to my friends— those who see me on the street flee from me.
12 I am forgotten by them as though I were dead; I have become like broken pottery.
13 For I hear the slander of many; there is terror on every side; they conspire against me and plot to take my life.
14 But I trust in you, O LORD; I say, "You are my God."
15 My times are in your hands; deliver me from my enemies and from those who pursue me.
16 Let your face shine on your servant; save me in your unfailing love.
17 Let me not be put to shame, O LORD, for I have cried out to you; but let the wicked be put to shame and lie silent in the grave.
18 Let their lying lips be silenced, for with pride and contempt they speak arrogantly against the righteous.
19 How great is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you, which you bestow in the sight of men on those who take refuge in you.
20 In the shelter of your presence you hide them from the intrigues of men; in your dwelling you keep them safe from accusing tongues.
21 Praise be to the LORD, for he showed his wonderful love to me when I was in a besieged city.
22 In my alarm I said, "I am cut off from your sight!" Yet you heard my cry for mercy when I called to you for help.
23 Love the LORD, all his saints! The LORD preserves the faithful, but the proud he pays back in full.
24 Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD.
i trust in You O Lord. and i know that You will catch your lil girl when she falls. i know that You will hold me tight even when i throw my tantrum, and comfort me and whisper 'i love You my lil girl.'
10:00 pm
soak up the son
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies
In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world, I'd make this last
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies
And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll missing your lovin' every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies
i suck. i cried today when i saw you leave..goodbye joanne mother. i will miss you so much.
11:24 pm
soak up the son
In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies
In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world, I'd make this last
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies
And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll missing your lovin' every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies
i suck. i cried today when i saw you leave..goodbye joanne mother. i will miss you so much.
11:24 pm
soak up the son
Monday, September 25, 2006
i'm sick. and feeling like a total wreck. my head is so going to burst this very instant. *boom*
i'm just so physically and mentally drained.
every sap of energy from my body is probably already left me.
i was actually quite surprised that i managed to make it back home today after tuition by bus.
almost collapsed on the way home.
*sniff* *sneeze*
it sucks being sick.
i don't blame u at all. it was just disappointment.
10:18 pm
soak up the son
Saturday, September 23, 2006
how now brown cow?
feeling kinda lost after that phone call. sigh.
its been a long time since i felt this way.
Lord please control my thoughts and feelings now.
roar!
Whatever it takes Oh, how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you
11:30 pm
soak up the son
Monday, September 18, 2006
didn't do much work today.
angry with myself.
pffft.
10:32 pm
soak up the son
Friday, September 15, 2006
DesiderataGo placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labours and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
i lay it all at Your feet. and choose to carry on despite it all.
5:50 pm
soak up the son
Thursday, September 14, 2006
i'm so full.. i don't think i'm gonna be eating dinner tonight or breakfast tomorrow and perhaps even lunch. haha. yes. that's how
stuffed i am. i realised today that eating can be a rather painful thing to do when u are so full that food is practically spewing out of your ears. hahaha. man, i can't even
think of food now, the F word just gives me the shivers. hahaha.
school has been rather tiring these few days. hardly had any time to rest or do much relaxing.
somehow the atmosphere is a bit different. just a bit. and everyone is more geared up i guess, after the initial stages of fatigue during pre-prelims. but now, everyone is lookin-good.
haha. well, at least i can still laugh today, and amuse myself and think happy thoughts.
tomorrow's entry is guaranteed to be emo and depressing. rawr.
8:24 pm
soak up the son
Monday, September 11, 2006
i feel like a total cow now.
moo.i was being so selfish today. i'm sorry.i shall be in peaceful anxiety.
9:18 pm
soak up the son
Sunday, September 10, 2006
tomorrow is the first day of term 4.
last term in my JC life.
hmm... some mixed feelings there. happy cos i'm so glad A levels are gonna be over soon and stressful JC life is coming to a close. yet, not so happy cos its the last time i'd probably ever be able enjoy mugging madly together and battling each school day with my study buddies.
i'm not even sure how i'm feeling now other than tired and a bit high. haha.
the holidays have been rather enjoyable for me. i got quite a lot of rest. not exactly in terms of sleep cos i don't think i slept as much as i wanted to. but i managed to catch up with my family, F5 and friends and the choir peeps and juniors and everything. managed to take a break officially from work and just go around and relax. like shopping without worrying about the lack of knowledge that i currently have, or eating without thinking about some random formula or stuff like that. a restful holiday there.
but from tomorrow onwards, its full steam ahead. no more slacking around or lazing too much. must remember that A levels are round the corner and prelims merely confirmed the inadequacy of my current state of knowledge of my syllabus. yeah.
and i think these few days i've been rather emo. getting very sensitive and very petty and picky at the slightest things. feeling some self-pity and sympathy for myself that i really need to snap out of.. haha.
well well. one thing's for sure: i'm looking forward to seeing all my beloved friends again tomorrow after quite a long time. missed each of you so much. and of course, quite excited about Seniors' Night tho its a rather long while from now. i'm very disillusioned, no? hahaha.
yeaps. all rightio. time to go. toodles.
10:19 pm
soak up the son
Saturday, September 09, 2006
O beware, my lord, of jealousy:It is the green-eyed monster which doth mock The meat it feeds on.i hate Shakespeare.cos his words are always so true.
5:27 pm
soak up the son
Friday, September 08, 2006
on a sunny thursday morning, 4 daring adventurers travelled around Singapore in the heat of the day in search for their roots...
muahahahaha. yes. we went on our lil self initiated NE tour around our lil island and surprisingly, had a whole lot of fun! trust me, NE tours are so much more fun when u go with your best friends and u plan your own route and visit places that u actually WANT to see. hahaha. yeappers.
the weather on thursday was excellent. enough to give me quite a bad sun burn and heat rash later on that night. haha. but amidst the blazing heat of the sun, and sweltering in your shorts and tops, we conquered Kampong Glam and Little India. unfortunately, i had to leave for family dinner that night so i couldn't do more sight-seeing at Chinatown with the rest, which was quite a pity cos i heard later on that the shopping at Chinatown was fabulous. haha.
haha. yeappers.
photos refuse to load. i guess i'll just load them tomorrow or something.
toodles.
11:30 pm
soak up the son
Monday, September 04, 2006
And You live again
Wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see You, Jesus, face to face
Someday I'll be there, I'm gonna be there
I'll see Your face, Your mercy, Your grace
Someday, someday
I'm gonna see You, Jesus
Face to Facei was just listening to this song on the way home after dinner.
Have you ever wondered what u'd do or say if u actually met Jesus now?i know what i'd do..
i'd run to Him and hug Him so tight and never ever want Him to leave.
9:27 pm
soak up the son
Sunday, September 03, 2006
to my lil sister:
after 16 years of fighting, screaming, shouting, and crying...
arguing, quarrelling, driving each other up the wall...
acting like total idiots, doing retarded and stupid things together...
i would never be able to imagine those 2 years of my life which i spent on my own without u..
love u mei. =)
10:28 pm
soak up the son
i think i practically slept the whole of today.
and the worst part is, i was in such a foul mood.
roar.
sorry i fa pi qi.sorry i listened to my head and not my heart.Walk down that lonesome road all by yourselfDon't turn your head back over your shoulderAnd only stop to rest yourself when the silver moonIs shining high above the treesIf I had stopped to listen once or twiceIf I had closed my mouth and opened my eyesIf I had cooled my head and warmed my heartI'd not be on this road tonight
12:21 am
soak up the son
after 16 years of fighting, screaming, shouting, and crying...
arguing, quarrelling, driving each other up the wall...
acting like total idiots, doing retarded and stupid things together...
i would never be able to imagine those 2 years of my life which i spent on my own without u..