Sunday, February 26, 2006
i'm having sore throat... SOB...
its happeneing AGAIN...youth meeting next friday night... and i'm excited about it!!! =)
and i'm really tired...and oh my goodness, i need to catch up for math tutorials...
i really have no extra energy to play with u...thankfully mr gerrard gan who got AAAB for promos (i'm still wondering if he's HUMAN) has kindly offered to pace me for math...
i'm not gonna put myselfcos if not i'm dead... hahaha... lagging like mad.
through what i did the last time...term exams in 2 weeks and i'm scared like anything...
forget it...don't want to screw it up cos i need to good results...
i just want to walk away from it all...oh well... i think i need to go and take medicine now... toodles.
rather than suffer from some broken heart again.
7:35 pm
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Wednesday, February 22, 2006
All for love the Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified
help Father...Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me
so many things that people don't understandEverything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You
teach me how to loveLet me sing all for love
I will join the angels song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all
and give me your strength.All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You
dad... can't u understand why... its been so long...
11:27 pm
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Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak
Won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray
what's this feeling i have inside?Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You
i want to please You only FatherAll I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is you Lord
No one elseOne more day and it's not the same
Your spirit calls my heart to sing
Drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again
Where would my soul be without Your Son
Gave His life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that
You're watching over me
so take me and mould meAll I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord
fill me and hold me tightYou hold the universe
You hold everyone on earth
You hold the universe
You hold
You hold
don't ever let me go Lord.
12:16 am
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Tuesday, February 21, 2006
i'm dead. i owe homework. 3 math tutorials and 1 very important lit essay... argh...
Like the sound of silence calling,
I hear your voice and suddenly
I'm falling, lost in a dream.
Like the echoes of our souls are meeting,
You say those words and my heart stops beating.
I wonder what it means.
What could it be that comes over me?
At times I can't move.
At times I can hardly breath.
When you say you love me,
The world goes still, so still and silent.
When you say you love me,
For a moment, there's no one else alive.
You're the one I've always thought of.
I don't know how, but I feel sheltered in your love.
You're where I belong.
And when you're with me if I close my eyes,
There are times I swear I feel like I can fly
For a moment in time.
Somewhere between the Heavens and Earth,
And frozen in time, Oh when you say those words.
When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still and silent.
When you say you love me
For a moment there's no one else alive.
And this journey that we're on.
How far we've come and I celebrate every moment.
And when you say you love me,
That's all you have to say.
I'll always feel this way.
When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still and silent.
When you say you love me
In that moment I know why I'm alive.
When you say you love me.
When you say you love me.
Do you know how I love you?
i love this song... the only problem is, my MP3 player refuses to register it in the system.... wth. sob. =( how can i be deprived of this beeaauuteeefuul song? argh. my phone is conked, my MP3 is not cooperating... SAMSUNG is totally getting on my nerves. RAARRR...
8:23 pm
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Monday, February 20, 2006
yay!!!! half day holiday today!!! mrs chan rox!!! lol. thank goodness she declared it a day off... i had nothing in my bag except for extra t shirt and pencil box. there was no trace of books in my bag except the overdue geog S essay which i totally forgot to pass up anyway. lol.
I LOVE YOU HONYI!!! this is the nth thousand time i have declared my undying love for our beloved hon jing yi, but I DON'T CARE. hahahahahahha... I LUB YOU... i hope u are feeling a lot better from the nice lil surprise that we popped on you today. keep smiling k darling... remember that F5 is always here for u... and don't ever feel alone cos u will never be. the brief but warm gathering was excellent and i enjoyed every moment of it. =) hope u did too dear. =muacks=
i think i'm extremely high today cos i managed to meet up with the MG teachers whom i love so much too... i think the 7 of us (meixi, clare, bea, e, nat, me, lydia hang) were all very excited when the cab entered the pearly white gates of Methodist Girls' School. to which upon arrival, meixi screamed,"I HATE THE COLOUR!!!!" yes, to our horror, our once beautiful pink and blue school has been transformed into some hospital looking institute... it is now... grey and blue... eeewwww... i hate the colour too... and the worst thing is: WE ARE NOT ALLOWED INTO THE STAFF ROOM ANYMORE!!!! that totally sucks.
then the saga started because our dearest clarissa poh aka idiot-under-cover, left her precious communication device on the comfort cab we took. so we were standing at the concourse, frantically calling comfort lost-and-found and her handphone non-stop till we were all tired and decided that we should just rest for a while... hahahahahaha... thankfully, she managed to get her phone back... with the help of a very special individual in her life right now... *grins*
anyway, my favourite mama bong is pregnant again!!! and she asked us what names are nice for her lil boy who is on the way... and i suggested MARCUS... hahahahahahaha... and she took it quite seriously. but i wasn't joking either... marcus is a terrific name. =)
yeap... then we went to meet my darling honyi for a while. went to venezia to have lunch and chill out for a while cos the poor dear was so sterssed... yeap. it was a nice lil F5 outing with meixi... tho she went home and didn't join us for the venezia outing. hahahahaha... then we did very bimbotic things like rate who would get 'married' first, etc... and my goodness they made me keep all the sheets of full scap that we wrote on... goodness gracious me...
then me and e went to holland to get her dinner before i went on my way to orchard alone for a while... went to do my eyebrows and walked around a bit by myself... it was quite nice... =) spending a bit of time with myself just walking around orchard... its been a long time since i've done that... and trust me, i think i could do that again for hours... just me, myself and God. hahahaha... it was nice. =) and oh yes!!! i met mr tanu at the Lucky Plaza bus stop... wonder what he was doing there... hahahahahaha...
yeap... today was a tiring day... i'm such a pig, i brought camera but didn't take any photos!!! sigh. how smart. hahahahaha.
ok need to do E8 essay now and math tutorials... ta ta.
9:01 pm
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Sunday, February 19, 2006
Who am I
That the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I
That the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Lord, my heart is heavy ladenedNot because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
i don't exactly know why i'm like thatI am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
everyone around me is sadWho am I
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who am I
That the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
and i feel so helpless...Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
and why are some people so selfish?I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
give me your strength and your joy Lord.I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours
my sister is such a sweetie pie... i just lub her so so much!!! yes mei, i do. i've always been this stupid b**** in the house, ordering you around, pmsing and then yelling at u, refusing to help you with homework, doing silly things, asking you why u and your friends are such weird people, being all cranky and everything... but... i still love u. tho u too, have learnt (partly from yours truely) to be an irritating pest, asking me to teach you for your test when i'm trying to do my homework, fighting with me for the toilet, arguing back at me, pmsing at me, telling me that my friends are weird people too, walking into the toilet while i'm bathing halfway and act as if i'm not there, etc... hahahahaha... all that... i guess maybe that's how God teaches us the meaning of tolerating, loving and understanding each other... doesn't mean we don't fight or have differences, i must say we are totally different people here. but God works in wonders, and everything at the end, all things turn out beautiful. =)
5:12 pm
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Friday, February 17, 2006
FUN O RAMA XVIIIwhoots!!! its gonna be super fun!!! many months of preparation and days of hardwork. finally, the fruits of our labour. a big thank you to those in class who have really put in your whole heart and soul into this massive fund raising project. i salute you, especially matthew, for being so selfless thoughout the whole preparation period. i can't wait for tomorrow... i know its gonna be a really long day for all of us. love you all so much. thank you for making this fun o rama so memorable. =)
10:02 pm
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Thursday, February 16, 2006
Lord, i need you
i've done so many things that have hurt you
so many things that i felt was wrong
cleanse me once again Lord
i feel like a sinner
i know what i'm doing isn't pleasing in your sight
i'm sorry Lord
Father God, forgive me, for i did not know what i was doing.
9:36 pm
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!love is in the air today. lessons were disrupted by random people sending their flowers, chocolates, balloons, what-have-yous. teachers were not spared. time ticked oh so slowly today and every moment seemed surreal due to the Valentines Day hustle and bustle on top of the Fun-O-Rama hype. teachers were performing in the canteen; i must say taht mr barry woolhead is a really good singer and guitarist. his performance was excellent. everyone loves everyone today... i know some teacher saw me walking from the Happy Huts to the canteen munching a watermelon, but she just conveniently looked away. haha... yes yes. and i am so gonna fail my econs test due to valentines day, but whatever. lol.
dinner was spent with my beloved parents and sister at crystal jade palace holland village. =) yeap. valentines day rocks.
fun o rama is in 4 days... argh. so much to do and so little time!!!
8:55 pm
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Saturday, February 11, 2006
its been a few days since i last blogged... missed me anyone? aha...
things have been rather mad the past few days... school school choir choir sleep sleep eat eat school school choir choir choir choir choir choir choir... aha... my schedule went something like that for the past few days. lol... ok lets recap...
wednesday
- went to SP to sell tickets for Fun O Rama... managed to sell about 10 tickets... to which was an achievement... thank God for giving me favour and helping me to clear my coupons. aha... yay. i actually called my kor kor and his ex, Jacqueline to help me out around the poly cos its super huge and also to get their friends to buy the tickets... but Jac was working when i called her and kor kor was having lessons. lol. so my class had quite a bit of problems looking for FC 6 at SP. i had quite a fun time bugging and pestering the SP people to buy. especially the guys... they are all super hard to convince... aha. but there are still nice people in this world. =) yes, and then kor kor bought 2 tickets from me, which is like how nice larh... and so, i managed to sell quite a lot. yay. all glory to God.
- later went to KAP to slack for a little while before rushing down to MacRitchie(spelling???) for X-country. i was all changed in my pe t shirt and FBTs when i realised that we didn't have to run due to the choir performance that was taking place later that evening, so all the choir people were excused!!! praise God. aha. i was kinda dreading X-country. running is definitely not one of my favourite activities. lol.
- went for choir performance... loved it. went home, tired, sleepy, homework undone.
thursday
- i can't remember what i did on thursday... SKIP.
friday
- went to school for 4 periods only cos we have choir sound check before the evening's performance... lol. choir is my life... love it like crazy. love making music with all you choir peepz. =)
and now on to today... guess what i did again today??? aha... you're absolutely right... choir again. aha. learnt new song and had to go for irritating geog lect in the middle of the rehearsal... raarrrr... i don't like rehearsals to be interrupted by these school thingies... argh... but anyway, had a great time again.
later went with my dad to collect val day stuff and buy pens. my dad is such a toot when it comes to romance and wooing girls... he's like... quite hopeless la... i totally had to teach him what to do... like... 'dad, i think u nede to take the bunch of flowers out now'... >.<
VALENTINES DAY IS IN 3 DAYS!!!!!aha... i'm quite stressed out cos i need to get all the flowers ready and all the other presents done, and write notes and everything... argh... can just flop over and die.
but have you really thought about what love is about? i mean like... i find it really dumb when the guy treats the girl like a piece of crap every other day and only on valentines day then sends her a bunch of flowers... like... that's so pointless... i mean, come on man... if love only existed because of valentines day then i think there's something really wrong with such a perception of love. shouldn't every other day be a valentines day for a couple in a relationship? i mean, my dad isn't the most romantic man on the face of this earth, but i can safely say that every day is as good as a valentines day for him and my momsy... really... and i really thank God for that... that i have such loving parents. its not easy... really... not easy at all...
i remember 2 years ago nearing this time of the year in sec 4. it was during math lessons and then my class asked my math teacher mrs tee what her husband was gonna get her for valentines day. and she calmly (of course she was smiling like mad) said, "nothing..." then we were all like, "HUH??? why not???" and then she said, "oh, cos he got me a car last year for valentines day." mind you, its no ordinary car... its a SILVER MERCEDES BENZ and so we were all like *yun dao* aha... don't you think that's the sweetest thing that can ever happen??? i think so... aha.
but really, what is love? love is definitely not a one day thing or a one dinner thing... its not just a feeling, cos feelings change and die... love is something more than that... and can u believe it,
God is love. He is one who doesn't change and stays constant all the time.
He is one who keeps
His promises and never lies.
He is the one who gave His son so that the world will live.
He is the one who redeemed your sins and brought you from the darkness into the light.
He is the lifter of your head.
He drives away all your fears.
He gives you strength for tomorrow. all these and so much more!!! wow... just try replacing all the 'He's with 'Love' and realise that love has all those qualities as well... now isn't that something new? aha.
so what exactly is true love?
true love is unconditional. true love is wanting nothing short of the best for that person. =)
9:01 pm
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Tuesday, February 07, 2006
i'm feeling emo and melancholic now... argh... the problem is, i don't exactly know why i'm feeling this way... >.<
so much to thank God for today... had econs test today. i think i'm going to fail. it was an easy test and i was a careless retard. sigh... but thank Daddy God that i managed to finish the essay and test and actually had stuff to write about it despite not being able to study much for it due to time constraints which were purely my fault. then i managed to finish another one of my econs essays which were overdue and hand it up to my teacher... which was a miracle cos i've been procrestinating that piece of assignment for the longest time ever. monday wasn't so bad and everything is fine now so yeah... i wanna thank Him once again... and then Fun O Rama preparations are getting better now... thankfully no one is screaming at me for the lack of finances in the class funds anymore... before going for dental today i was thinking of taking a bus to Alexander Hospital, but then my dad was nearby so he came to pick me up. yay. save on taxi fare. lol. yeap yeap... God is faithful always.
have mercy on me Lord, a sinner.
10:19 pm
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Sunday, February 05, 2006
Daddy God... i'm afraid... i've been dreading tomorrow... but i know that You will give me the strength and You are in control...
please carry me thru...
9:35 pm
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Saturday, February 04, 2006
i wanna be inside Your heaven.... =)
let me be 'God-intoxicated'... let me look into Your face until i ache with bliss and even my pores and every single cell rejoices at the thought of You...
i want to love Your presence so much that for when 5 minutes or so You slip out of my mind, i will feel as though i have deserted You, as though i have lost something precious in my life...
i want to whisper 'i love you' in Your ear continually and think about You with every waking thought... i want the First Love again...
thank You for carrying me thru this week... when i was down and on my bleeding knees and crying for help... when i felt my world was falling apart and my heart torn to bits... thank You Daddy...
7:55 pm
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Friday, February 03, 2006
i'm tired Daddy God... i'm weary... dragging my feet as i go on each day...
but i'm going to let all of it go Lord... the pain, the loneliness, the pride, the insecurity, everything...
i'm gonna let it go, so give me one more chance, and save me from this road i'm on... Jesus take the wheel.
i'm gonna let it go so that you can be greater in my life... let me shine for you and live for you... because you are my hope and my future...
10:39 pm
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Wednesday, February 01, 2006
its my fault... i'm sorry... everything's gone wrong because i was there... wrong place at the wrong time doing the wrong thing... i'm so sorry... i can't forgive myself and i wouldn't expect you to forgive me... i'm sorry... i shouldn't have been there...
its my fault that i'm in this unbelievably crappy state now... its my fault that things had to turn out this way... i'm so so sorry...
In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes
Like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal
To the grace by which I stand
In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone
In Christ alone will I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord
In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone
Is Christ alone
Lord... people in this world are so hard to please... but You are the reason that i'm still breathing every breath of air... i'm weary and weak and i just wanna run into your arms and cry... why am i like that??? why??? why am i such a pathetic little girl??? Daddy God... help me please...
10:06 pm
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