Your love is warmer than the warmest sunshine

Sunday, November 06, 2005

ARGH. this sucks!!!!!!

forget it. the more i think about it, the more irritated i get. argh. so hard to love people who are so... annoying. to love te people we are stuck with FOR LIFE. God, you have to help me. i'm about to burst already. i think i can implode right now. how am i supposed to LOVE???

RAAARRRR.... >.< this HAS to happen minutes before i go to sleep. doink.

seriously, i think i've fallen into the devil's trap again. i'm so aggitated by it and i can't seem to control my words. and looking backon today, i realised that i said a whole lot of hurtful things. argh. i really don't want to devil to get hold of this extremely fatal weakness of mine. it is a really sickening feeling when you realise that its not just God and yourself who knows your weakness, but also the devil who is lurking at every single corner, waiting to pounce upon your weak spots and devour you anytime. its scary. and i think i just let him exploit my weakness the whole of today. especially just now. argh. man... it feels really yucky to know that you allowed youself to cave in to your weaknesses. sigh.

church was great today. haha. it always is. =) then it was shopping cos tomorrow i'm officially attached!!! haha. walked from takashimaya to wisma atria then took mrt to raffles city and then walked to marina square just to get ready for tomorrow. yes yes, i think i burnt a hole in my dad's pocket. spent like $99 at Zara and $100 over at URS inc. then my working pants which requires dry cleaning only was like $70 around there... argh... sorry daddy... not like i wanted the clothes to be so expensive... sorry... my momsy looked really tired today... i think she's exhausted from work and everything... and she was really nice to follow us to the shops... i know she wanted to go hoe actually and pig out. but she had fun shopping...i think... hmmm... yes, my momsy rocks! lunch was rather disasterous. don't want to talk about it. yup.

today was a rough day. i was extremely emotional today. not being my usual self. i can't blame the mood swings on puberty cos it ain't fair. esther, you need to SADDLE YOUR EMOTIONS, you pig!!!! yeap.

i think i need to go polish my sword now and then have an early (or rather earlier as compared to usual days) night rest. if not i probably will wake up late and get sacked on the first day of attachment or something. haha.

11:12 pm
soak up the son