Friday, November 04, 2005
today was an okay day...
woke up at 9.10am and was supposed to meet the rest of the pw group in school by 10am... yes, i'm such a pig. we were surprisingly productive today for pee double you... it wasn't as crappy as i thought it would be. haha... yes, i have rather low expectation of our pee double you meetings... we had macs for lunch to which i ordered grilled chicken foldover cos it was deemed healthier... hahaha... yes, my group members are rather supportive of my dieting plans!!! excellent!!! =D haha...we ended by 1pm. gayle said that our group dynamics is rather interesting. i totally agree... LOL.
geog lecture was next... we went in a lil bit late due to the late delivery by the Macs guy. thankfully, the lecture hadn't began yet cos mr lynn wasn't able to get anything on the screen just as yet. phew. geog lecture was long as usual... but today's was rather interesting.. learnt something new in geog class today that mrs ahem (fredrick and walter) apparently didn't teach us in secondary school... or rather, she never allowed us to see that perspective of Plate Tectonics... hahaha... maybe that was why i hated that topic so much in secondary school.
everything has been quite rough. the holidays are getting busy... and monotonous... i kinda miss choir and singing... and my dear other half jolene... sigh... hahahahaha... and its only been what, 5 days since i last saw the choir peeps on monday. whoar... haha. oh well. my attachment is gonna start soon. called up the law firm today and was greeted by a really nice lady... or at least she sounded extremely nice over the phone. i can't wait to go over and take a look. yeap... which means... i need to go and get more long sleeved collared shirts and all sorts... hahaha... yeah, black work pants and that sort of thingys. haha... quite exciting. but other than that, there is hardly anything much to do now... i hope things get busier... i'm quite worried that i'm actually slacking quite a bit now. cos everything seems to have become so laid back that i'm starting to worry. perhaps i have a lot of work waiting for me... i just haven't exactly realised it yet... argh... i hope not tho, that would be like my worst nightmare. haha. but anyhow, i spent practically the whole afternoon in front of the tv. flipping channels like mad. from one chinese drama serial to the next, from one movie to another. yes, esther ang is pigging out. meeps. >.<
just a few days ago, i was on the bus with Gina and Christelle on my way home before going out for dinner with william and friends, when Gina asked me 'So Esther, are you attached?'. and i happily said, 'Yeah i am. i'm attached to a law firm for the next two weeks starting next week.' then there was silence as Gina looked at me in disbelief for the next 30 seconds. and yours truely just stared back at her innocently. haha. sorry la. how i know what you girls were referring to? haha. but seriously, how to get attached now? i haven't even sorted out my life properly. i can't even balance my time between geography lectures and my work attachment and church commitments are also there... and then there's my family and my friends, AND SCHOOL!!! argh. so many many many many things... tell me how to get attached? i can hardly breathe as it is already. plus, there are like so many trials that have been coming at me non stop. how to get attached? i also dunno. to those out there who are attached in JC, i'm happy for u. haha. was talking to my cousin who is in the army last night before he went back to camp and he was telling me to concentrate on m studies. true. i have too many things to worry about already at hand. plus, next year, all the teachers promised hell in terms of work and syllabus to cover, and i have also gotten myself involed in Arts Council and OGL-ing. and not forgetting, there's choir. woohoo... there goes my life. haha. yeap. so does that answer your question, Gina? and yeah. i do believe that its not the right time... not at all. =D
God has been good to me all this while despite all the things that has happened around me. i guess only He understands my deepest thoughts. yes, Psalm 139 says it all. i can't imagine what my life would be like without God... i think i'd be long dead. thankfully, He knows my everything. my thoughts, my struggles, my words even before i speak them, my actions, my personality, my every move. wow. and that is a comfort a lot of times. that someone out there really loves you so so much that He can't bear to see me just the way i am, He wants me to be even better, to be Just like Jesus. wow... that like totally drives me to tears.
muaks.
7:10 pm
soak up the son
