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Saturday, December 31, 2005

today is the last day of 2005... wow... its been a really eventful year. all the tears and smiles... 1st january 2005 was just like yesterday... oh well...

Wishlist 2006:
1. to be closer to God
2. that my family: daddy, momsy, mei and even the stinky lil ko-i, will be happy and healthy
3. that F5 and the awesome friendship we share will continue to grow and blossom as we overcome all sorts of challenges and seemingly impossible physical distances together even as the new year begins (muaks, i really love u guys with all my heart.)
4. that AHSCones and friends will continue to share this special bond
5. that we as choir seniors next year will continue to have this amazing friendship we share thru music that will always be magival and leave a legacy that is as wonderful or even more than it already is
6. that Flames will continue to serve God faithful even with the little that we have to offer
7. that daddy will buy momsy a new car in June... lol...
8. that i will get my 4As despite all odds. hahahaha... and Orientation 2006 will be a huge success
9. that my special someone will appear soon
10. that 2006 will be even better than 2005!!!

yeap. that's my lil wishlist. haha... now for the personalised lil messages to certain groups and individuals who have really made 2005 so precious and special to me.

God
He has always been faithful to me thru all situations this year... i don't think i can ever survive a day without Him. =muacks= thank u papa God. your little girl has grown a little bit more this year... =)

Family
i doubt any of you will be reading this, but anyway, i just wanna thank u guys for being so understanding to me thru this year... treating home like a hotel and all. thank you for putting up with my PMS-ey times and always being there for me. thank u for coming to watch me and the choir carol. i was really really comforted and extremely happy. thank you momsy for always providing for me financially... i know i owe u dunno how much $$$ already but u never ever expect me to return it cos u love me a lot. thank u... u dunno how much i appreciate that. thank you for making time to go shopping with me and for being teacher, mother, housewife, counsellor, doctor, friend, sister and everything. i really think u are superwoman and i really thank God for u. i love u so so much. thank you daddy for always believing in me... for giving me a lot of leeway this year... even tho i've been super rebellious (yes, i know), but thank you for always respecting my decision and for giving in to my nonsense a lot of times. thank you mei... for putting up with a unreasonably mad woman, irritating sister, crazy shoppaholic, annoying ah soh, and really bad roommate for forever. thank you for giving in to me a lot of times tho i'm supposed to be the one giving in to you. to my dearest dearest cousins... =muacks= i love all of u!!! i can't wait to go out with all of u again soon when we are free. can't wait for new year when we meet again at ah ma house. can't wait to see u guys... =)

F5 - honyi
honyi... what can i say? u are really my bestest of best friends... each time i think about u, i'm really comforted... that there is always someone out there that i might not be able to meet 24/7 but understands me so well. tho we like to irritate each other, i really thank God for knowing and having you as my bestest best friend. i think i'm crazy when i start tearing at the thought of how physically distant we are most of the time... yet, the friendship that we have is so strong... u know it, and i do too. i really love u babe. and i really treasure u so so much. i don't know how i'd live without knowing u. sometimes when we go out, we might not say anything to each other for a while, but even the silence we share is of such great comfort to me. what more can i say? i love u darling, and u know it. till i see u again, i'll be loving u... =)

F5 - Elaine
the dearest and bestest ballet dance on earth. i'm always so proud to be your friend. each time i watch you dance, i cannot help but just be awed by your grace on stage. to me, u will always be the best and only ballerina and no one else can take your place. u are one person who knows me so well, sometimes i feel that we are so emotionally similar. thank u for always being there... tho we are in the same school compound, it seems almost impossible to have a time to sit down and really talk. even tho we can't do that, i'm so glad that each time i do, i can just share everything with you. u just make me feel so at home. love u dear. i will always be there supporting u in your pursuit for your dreams... and i know u will be there for me too... =)

F5 - Bea
to my mama bea. thank you for always being there looking out for me... even tho we haven't talked in a long while, i always know that there is someone out there who is looking out for me and making sure that i'm safe. i find it really stupid that we are in the same school and same fac but we hardly have time to even talk... but still, just knowing that u are there for me makes me smile... cos i will always feel so secure with u around... so much so i'm starting to get a little bit complacent. haha. but thank you. thank you for being there for me for so long... since what... primary 4?? my dearest penpal and ex-mortal. we have really come a very long way. i'm always so proud of u cos u are the one out of the 5 of us that can play such a unique instrument... gu zheng... like how cool is that? haha... i get a bit jealous of u cos u can play such an elegent instrument. i love u, dearest mama bea and i know u do to... =)

F5 - Nut
nutty lee... haha... my favourite nut. dunno why, i used to think u were rather retarded, but look at how much u have grown... tho i must admit that when u are with us, the zai natalie lee disappears and all i see is the NUTTY RETARD. haha. but still, i'm always so proud of u. for your ability to be such an optimistic and loud person... people notice u when u say things... and i've always envied your ability to get the attention of the crowd. yet, i am also so proud to be your good friend. thank you for being such a dear nat... u always put a smile on my face and make me feel so at home. and... guess what... now i can share secrets with u at ease. lol. hahaha... i used to hesitate quite a bit when telling u stuff cos i was afraid that you'd, in your sheer excitement, blurt everything out to the world. but... yes dear, i trust u. i'm always so proud of u nat... and so happy to be able to be your good friend. thank you for being there darling nat... i'll be there for u always and i know u will too... =)

AHSCones and friends
thank you... all of u... for making 2005 such a great year... i dunno how i'd be able to survive J1 without all u amazing people... you guys are just so special and so precious to me... yes u, each and every one of u. love u guys so very much. =muacks=
thank you abel... the list of things i have to thank you for is probably never ending... for always being there, going the extra mile and talking to me when i'm all messed up. being with u puts a smile on my face and i always look forward to talking to u and meeting up. u rock bro.
thank u ethel darling, there is so much i have to thank you for... for always pointing me to God when i'm all confused.. thank you for being such a great OG mate and AHredder, we have lots more to go in 2006 and i really look forward to it cos i know u will be with me thru it. i love u so much babe. =muacks=
thank you cheryl... even tho u are the blondie... u are the prettiest one on this earth. thank you for being there for me always. and doing stupid things with me... and yes, i don't mind going to watch movies with u tho its super last minute notice and i'd probably be wasting 2 hours of my life with you in the theater... i love u so much darling... =muacks=
thank you soph, for listening and sharing with me events that are pleasent and not so pleasent thru the year... u have really been a darling. =muacks= yes yes... thank you ALL... from the bottom of my heart.

Jolene huang
to my dearest shopping darling... u haven't been replying my messages or picking up my calls... HMMM... hahahahaha... but don't worry, i still love you. u have been such a great person this year dearie. thanks for always going shopping with me... hope we get to go out more next year!!!! =) love u to bits.

Mark
thanks for always being there, mister president. it has been a crazy year... haha... remember when we went out during first 3 months with lyd and jon and a certain someone. lol. hahahahaha... thank you for being such a great pal and brotherand for being such a sweet and nice person. i think i'll never forget how i made u cry during tour... haha... it really freaked me out a lot, i'm still so sorry i did... i really thank you for looking out for me so many times. can't wait for next year!! i'm sure you'll be a great president. =)

Nads and Nic
hi there N-squared. i love both of u so much... u guys ahve been such a blessing to me... yeah... its just been great being able to know both of u.
to nads... thank you for always being there... to listen to my throwing tantrums about stuff and getting pissed and everything... i dunno what i'd do without u. thank you so much... for looking out for me, for watching me grow. thanks for being such a great sister. i really appreciate u so much. looking forward to next year with u. love u dear.
to nic... thank you for always asking how i am... haha... tho sometimes i really am OK. hahahahaha... lol. your concern is always so comforting. its been a really crazy year... i'm sure you'd agree. but its been less crazy cos you've been there looking out for me. thank you bro.

Clement
thank you...MENT (tee hee)... for everything... for always being there... for listening... for being such an awesome friend. i wouldn't know what to do without u. tho we often quarrel and fight and have our differences, i still thank God for this love-hate relationship that we have... haha... yes, i really do. i thank God for knowing you, u never fail to put a smile on my face... but sometimes, also make me wanna cry... hahahahaha... but oh well. i look forward to next year cos i know that u will always be there for me, pointing me to God and His will for me. many things have happened this year... even tho there were some things that didn't exactly go out right, i'm not afraid to face next year, even tho there might be even more things that would possibly go haywire, cos i know that u will always be there for me. =)

William aka kindergarten pal
hey there cool guy... thank you for everything this year... its been one crazy ride. and i just wanna thank you for being there for me thru the year... i'm always very very happy when we hang out... somehow when we hang out i can put aside all the homework and the stress that i'm facing and just go crazy and enjoy. =) i never thought that i'd meet you in JC, but i'm so glad i did. even tho we are in different schools, have many other commitments and we have our own group of friends, i'm really happy that we can still have fun and all when we go out. and i really thank God for meeting u again... somehow when i met u for the first time again during orientation i felt like i had known u forever already. haha. cheers to an even better year next year, with more fun and more hanging out. stay cool. =)

thank you all of u... everyone of u that are so precious to me... i'm so sorry i can't write personalized messages to everyone of u... i'd love to... but i think it would be WAY TOO LONG. but know that i love u. and i wanna thank you for everything. u have made my 2005 so precious... =muacks= but do know that i love u all... yes... u, u , u and u. i love u all so much, from the bottom of my heart.

7:33 pm
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oh well... went to xi zhen's house today for the party!!! woo hoo. it rocked!!! the punch rocked actually... lol. i totally love it. =) i think soph and cheryl would agree too... anyway, i'm very tired now. there's nothing much to blog about and i'm getting lazy blogging anyway... there are just way too many photos... and i have no time to upload them. TOO BAD.

since you've been gone... i can breathe for the first time...

1:01 am
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Tuesday, December 27, 2005

i love mass dance... lol. now that i have learnt how to dance it... its so nice... hahahahaha... i can't wait to teach it to the lil J1s next year. its gonna be so fun. i have like a thousand and one things i wanna do with them... =)... yes, call me mad. oh well... my toes are aching from orientation recamp today. tomorrow is going to be yet another long until like dunno what day... the cherring today was extremely mild and my throat is near being killed already... i dare not think abt what's gonna happen to it tomorrow. raarr... yeap... i promise i'll upload the photos soon. yeap. as for now... u loyals fans of my blog can keep waiting!!! muahahahaha.
why am i feeling this way??? it sucks.
and you totally ruined my last week.
thanks a lot... i hate u.

11:26 pm
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haven't blogged for a long long time... too many things happened... too little time. hahahahaha... anyway, i'llupload the photos later.haha...cos its rather late now... HAPPY BOXING DAY. =)

12:35 am
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Sunday, December 18, 2005

today i went to watch The Nutcracker (photo above) aka The Nutty Crack with my darling F5 and teacher Chen. we had a smashing good time. i think it was an awesome experience for all of us considering that all 4 of us, bea, nat, me and hons have never watched an actual ballet live in our lives before. yeap. we were extremely impressed. the music was great. orchestra rocked. the dancers were just lovely and our beautiful snowflake cum flower was just as graceful as ever. =) haha. we had a brief but great time. then we had a rather interesting conversation with teacher Chen over supper at Long John's in Marina Square and then stayed there till past midnight. lol. yes, and then our worried parents were calling us and all. hahaha... then the 6 of us just went mad laughing at the top of our voices while making our way down to catch a cab. lol. i think ppl thought we were all drunk. yeap.

then when we finally managed to catch a cab, bea, e, hons and i packed in and to our horror, we realised that our taxi driver was some big fat pain in the neck. i think we can all high 5 to that. he was just driving so wrecklessly and when we started talking he turned on his stereo to top volume so we were close to shouting the instructions out to him. the best part was, the songs weren't even nice. we all felt like aborting the cab and just jumping out. haha. got home safe but with a headache. =.=

i enjoyed myself so so much tonight. i love u guys F5!!!! i can't wait to see all u ppl again on the 26th!!! muaks. i've had the best night of my life. haha. tho it was really short cos there was hardly any time to really talk or anything... we were all just rushing from place to place due to the lack of time. its been a great night. ballet was awesome and i really look forward to going to watch more. hahahaha... E, u will always be my favourite ballerina. =) all the best for the shows next week!!! come watch me in your make up!!! i'd love to see u there. haha. your christmas cards should be coming soon... hahahaha... tho i haven't written any due to the lack in time, but i will make sure they get to you guys in time!!! =) as for teacher Chen, i'll be praying for you dear!!! maybe the next time i see you, you will have good news to share le!!! muahahahahaha... yeap. LOVE U ALL TO BITS!!! muaks muaks muaks. goodnight babes. hugs.

1:38 am
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Friday, December 16, 2005

PON DE REPLAY by Rihanna

[Hook x2:]Come Mr. DJ song pon de replay
Come Mr. DJ won't you turn the music up
All the gyal pon the dancefloor wantin some more what
Come Mr. DJ won't you turn the music up

[Verse:]it goes 1 by 1 even 2 by 2
everybody on the floor let me show you how we do
lets go dip it low then you bring it up slow
wine it up 1 time wine it back once more

[Pre-Hook:]Run, Run, Run, Run
Everybody move run
Lemme see you move and
Rock it til the grooves done
Shake it til the moon becomes the sun (Sun)
Everybody in the club give me a run (Run)
If you ready to move say it (Yeah Yeah)
One time for your mind say it (Yeah Yeah)
Well i'm ready for ya
Come let me show ya
You want to groove im'a show you how to move
Come come

[Hook x2:]Come Mr. DJ song pon de replay
Come Mr. DJ won't you turn the music up
All the gyal pon the dancefloor wantin some more what
Come Mr. DJ won't you turn the music up

[B-Sec x2:]Hey Mr. Please Mr. DJ
Tell me if you hear me
Turn the music up

[Verse 2:]It goes 1 by 1 even 2 by 2
Everybody in the club gon be rockin when i'm through
Let the bass from the speakers run through ya sneakers
Move both ya feet and run to the beat

[Pre-Hook:]Run, Run, Run, Run
Everybody move run
Lemme see you move and
Rock it til the grooves done
Shake it til the moon becomes the sun (Sun)
Everybody in the club give me a run (Run)
If you ready to move say it (Yeah Yeah)
One time for your mind say it (Yeah Yeah)
Well i'm ready for ya Come let me show ya
You want to groove im'a show you how to move
Come come

[Hook x2:]Come Mr. DJ song pon de replay
Come Mr. DJ won't you turn the music up
All the gyal pon the dancefloor wantin some more what
Come Mr. DJ won't you turn the music up

[B-Sec x2:]Hey Mr. Please Mr. DJ
Tell me if you hear me
Turn the music up

WHOOT!!! I LOVE THE ORIENTATION SONGS!!! this rocks my socks to the core!!! thanks lyd, jesse, and ying ling. u guys rock!!!!! krissandi also!!! and ABEL!!! muaks muaks muaks... man, i so love u guys. muaks. =) u guys are just awesome ppl. thanks so much for everything today. can't wait for the recamp!!!

gerrard!!!! u had better go and learn your dance man!!! when u come back, u'd better be movin to the groove PERFECTLY! hahahahahaha... but enjoy yourself in USA. haha. will miss u! oh well. its been a smashing day. woo hoo... i'm gonna practice my dance now.

ta ta... i'm like... totally high.

9:41 pm
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Wednesday, December 14, 2005

its funny how things turn out differently...
everything that happened during the holidays was just so... unexpected.
many things have happened...
too many things are left unsaid and promises are forgotten...
at this stage, i really don't know what to do or say...
actually, there's nothing much to do or say cos we should all just move on with our lives.
reflecting on the past is really too painful... yes abel i know self evalution is essential from time to time,
yet i don't exactly wanna face events and memories that have really hurt and confused me so much...
i've been chasing something that was never there in the first place.
i've been dreaming all this while and i just wanna wake up from this dream...
i want to wake myself up before i'm woken up by someone else and when i realise it then,
i know my world will just shatter before my eyes.
dreams are never real...
it hurts so much wake up but...
i really wanna get out of this mess...

i'm really happy right now... its a different feeling from being happy a few months ago.
and seriously, i'd rather be the person i am now.
i don't want to turn back cos the memories are just too painful and scary...
call me a coward, say i don't want to face the facts, but i don't want to turn back and look at it anymore.
maybe i will one day... just maybe one day in the future i might just decide to look back at what happened.
but... when that day arrives, i know that i will look back and laugh...
laugh at my stupidity and my naivity and continue being the happy, confident person.
now is just not the time... i don't want to risk falling into a relapse: entering my dream world again.
evaluation at this point is in the dumpster for me.

haha... i don't really know what i'm talking abt... its a bit scary... i'm just writing down random random thoughts. like i said, too many things have happened. i admit, i am a naive, innocent, gullible, stupid girl... believing everything would turn out just fine. sigh... God... thank you for being there... i just wanna thank you. cos u have seen me thru all this. even thru the mess i was in u were right there beside me. even tho i threw my tantrum, refused to listen, disobeyed u and continued being the rebellious naughty child. despite all this, u were there for me. and i just wanna thank you. 2005 has really been a very hard year. a learning experience, a crazy adventure, a mad rush, an emotional roller coaster, a heartbreaking journey, an amusing joyride. right now, i'm rather car-sick. haha. and so i'm cruising along. yet, i know this cruise ain't gonna last. when the school term starts again, its gonna be even worse. i can just feel it: my world is just gonna be on the verge of collapsing on me. yet, it doesn't. cos i know He will always be there and i can be thankful for that.

you know, its so easy to die, but so difficult to live. sometimes, i wish i could just die... and then all my troubles will go away. and i'll just escape into a world where there is no pain or suffering, no more heartaches and confusion. but... i know i'm not here for my own. someone paid the price so i can be here typing and living and disobeying and rebelling and doing the things that i am called to do.

sometimes i ask: God, are u really there??? HELLO... can u even hear me, why am i going thru this crap? haha... but soon that question fades away. ask me why, but i don't exactly know myself. when such a human, such a childlike tantrum-ish question pops into my head, its the inner witness, that grown up spirit in me that speaks to me. and in the midst of my confusion that the still, small, soft voice speaks. u know, Jesus said that the Holy Spirit will teach us what to do when He is not on earth anymore. truely, the Holy Spirit who lives in us is not only a teacher, but also a comforter. i have always known Him as a comforter. so that when i'm down, i know that He will know what to say to me to lift me head up again. its quite amazing really.

oh well... i'm really hungry. i shall go get a bite now. sugar levels are dipping. =)

2:35 pm
soak up the son

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

MSN is failing me once again... it just refuses to sign in... RAARRRR... haha. oh well... for those who read my blog yesterday and realised that there was a BIG part regarding the surprie party for abel and bev missing now, HAHA... i took it off, cos... i was too lazy to update and elaborate. plus, i found it a bit too... narrative. lol. but u can still admire the pictues!!! haha. lol.

i'm in desperate need of $$$... ARGH. how how how??? this totally sucks... argh. christmas is gonna make me terribly terribly broke. AHHHH... i dunno what to do... yikes.

btw, i went to cut hair today... then came home and got really sad cos my sis said that there was no difference. sob sob. =(

so many things to do... ahhh... lets see... thursday will be the start of the siao 2 weeks before school. and i'm still procrestinating when it comes to homework. eeee.... i need a miracle.

11:44 pm
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Monday, December 12, 2005

i'm quite dead cos i haven't exactly touched any of my homework... but i'm getting on to it... hahahaha... i started on Ecosolo ok! haha. for those of u who still think that the website is down, NO... it is not. and guess what, we have a test when school starts, so you guys better get your mouse clicking and go check it out. haha. yesh yesh.

anyway... HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO ABEL AND BEV!!!!!! woo hoo!!! we had a smashing time yesterday....yes yes. i apologise for the time lapse, cos their birthday was yesterday... but due to the fact that i was already dying by the time i got home, i only uploaded the photos this morning. haha. yes yes, u guys can go check it out. oh well... yes, about the surprise party. haha. well, it was another one of those excellent birthday bashes planned by our dear deb yap. =) i really admire her ability to remember everyone's birthday... AND... organise their birthday bashes!!! 5 stars for u deb!!! =)

u can take a look at the nice pics i took.... http://share.shutterfly.com/action/welcome?sid=2CbsXLVszYsJi&notag=1

1:26 pm
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to abel. thank u for everything. especially these 2 weeks. =) thank u. cheers to your birthday... which happened yesterday. love u always bro. muaks.

零 - 柯有伦

从来不相信我的世界可以有多完美
痛苦寂寞还有一些疲惫
不允许他人随意进入我的零度空间
宁愿孤独懒得再去想谁

两个人一起是否只是得到一种安慰
挣脱过去然后忘记一切
没想过有天我的结局忽然全部改变
谁会抓住我的无力双臂

怎么会哭 (谁错谁对为谁抱歉) 不会再哭 (谁错谁对为谁憔悴)

走入零度空间等到一切分裂
就算爱的危险我们一起面对
来不及的防备没听过的誓言
要我怎么学会多了爱的明天

走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔
放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天
新的明天~

两个人一起是否只是得到一种安慰
挣脱过去然后忘记一切
没想过有天我的结局忽然全部改变
谁会抓住我的无力双臂

怎么会哭 (谁错谁对为谁抱歉) 不会再哭 (谁错谁对为谁憔悴)

走入零度空间等到一切分裂
就算爱的危险我们一起面对
来不及的防备没听过的誓言
要我怎么学会多了爱的明天

走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔
放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天
新的明天~

走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔
放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天
新的明天~
新的世界~

12:51 pm
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Saturday, December 10, 2005

today was an awesome day.

woke up at 10 something and then got changed and went for choir at 12 noon. choir was great... i loved it. my all time favourite conductor was there... and oh my goodness we had a smashing great time. so inspiring and so fun. everything was fab. due to the severe lack of people in my section i was asked to sit in the front row. *cold sweat* yes... it was rather... exciting. haha. especially when my section was asked to sing without the help of the alumnae... boy was it challenging. but it was great fun. i think i took back a lot tho i had to elave halfway which was a pity. raar... haha. i had to go for my cousin's commissioning cos i promised him i'd go. so i had to tear my butt of my seat and go for the parade.

the parade was cool. weather was lovely... SAFTI Military Institute is a really scenic place. so many trees, nice brick buildings and open spaces... clean fresh air... woo hoo... reminded me of Australia and that time when we went there for 2 weeks. unfortunately, no photography... haha... so too bad. u'll just have to go there to really see for yourself. the ceremony and parade was not too bad... a few hiccups here and there like some guy who was out of line, one who platoon that was marching with their arms all over, one guys who accidentally opened his legs too wide when the rest were standing with their legs closed... stuff like that, but it was very real to me... i mean, if it was all so perfect, i wouldn't have thought i went for a live parade. i mean... come on man, no matter how perfect events are, there are bound to be hiccups. and even in life... that's just the way it goes. and we gotta accept that. but that doesn't mean we stop striving for excellence. =) yeap. then there was the throw the hats up in the air thingy. hahaha. it was awesome. and yes, my cool cousin is now an OFFICER. MISTER COMMANDO OFFICER!!!! yeah. whoar, i'm so happy for him.

haha... me and my sis took pics afterwards while on our way home cos my parents brought my grandma to the hospital due to her leg... sigh... i'm rather worried for her... meeps. maybe i'll go visit her tomorrow? hmmm... i kinda miss her. miss all my cousins!!! why are u all so busy... we haven't gone out since last year lor... remember our swimming trip??? i can still remember... then those ang moh kids went and stole our floats. haha. and then we had to get them back... haha. and then at the Jaccuzi and the slides... sigh... we are all so busy now... some working, others holidaying, then got one in the army... aiyo... how to meet??? sigh. can we find some time to meet next year december??? just before ah hong goes to the army?? argh crap... but then... ah wei will be in army le... aiyo... so mah fan all u boys. heng only got 3 of u... haha. i don't care... we must meet up next year december!!!! we go sentosa ok?? hahahaha... yeah! haha. i can't wait to see all of u during CNY... its in January so it will be quite soon. haha. yeap. =) we all go on the same day k? then we go and disturb the gu gongs together. hahahaha... lol. whoar... miss u guys man. >.<

ok... i'm actually saving this space for photos of me and my sis from SAFTI and on the mrt, but blogger won't let me put them online now... raaarr... so... just watch this space!!! hahaha...

ANYWAY... i've just uploaded the photos of the outing with the Daycare centre kids which happened on friday!!!! hahahahaha... yeap. it was really hilarious lar that day... the kids were super naughty... but i think i'm a big kid myself so i was just naughty back to them... i think nadine wanted to scold me or something. then afterwards they started calling deb 'MOMMY' and nic 'DADDY' which i found very inappropreate, cos we all know who is really is 'MOMMY' and who is 'DADDY' right?? hahahahaha.... i'm just joking here so nads pls don't kill me if u read this. hahahahahaha... anyway, then they decided to marry me and mark for the day... hahahahaha... it was quite funny and pretty amusing... so i was 'AUNTIE' and mark was 'UNCLE, AH PEK, AH KONG' and 'LAO BI' which i don't really know what it means... old nose?!?!?! cannot be wad... where got ppl randomly call other ppl old nose??? hahahaha... dunno la... kids ah... they are all a bit sot once they get roudy around u. then mark had a lot of trouble cos there were these 2 very persistant lil girls who were snatching for his handphone and his bag and whatever other things they saw him holding until he totally gave up and gave in. lol. nic was acting like a kid the whole day la... he tried to show angry face to one of the naughty boys but ended up laughing 2 seconds later... like... =.= and then mark tried in vain to get the kids to stop playing with the automatic door... to which i decided to give him a hand cos he looked like he was gonna errupt. >.< i totally witness his eruption at the 'Looch' or whatever u call the thingy we rode on friday, our main activity, yeah... and it was mega scary.

mark: *using the diaphram and probably throat too* I WANNA SEE TWO LINES NOW!!! AND I MEAN IT!!! NOW!!!
me: O.O *hair stand, heart leaps out of mouth due to shock*

yeah... i never liked shouting at kids... never liked being shouted at anyway. i find it very tiring and totally dumb. i don't see why u can talk to kids nicely... maybe i'm just fit to play the good guy and let other ppl play the bad guy. yeah... i totally didn't shout at them... as in... not like that la... but i'll be like... 'YO, HURRY KIDS... QUICK QUICK!' but nothing like shout and give the mean/angry face... i doubt you'll ever see me like that... yikes... sigh... i really don't understand why people shout at kids... oh well... but i do believe everyone has their own teaching styles, so whatever floats your boat... =) yeap. by the end of the day we were all just lying there half dead... all of us *the older ones, mind u* were sleeping on the way back due to sheer exhaustion... trust me, it can really help u lose weight. muahahahaha... we didn't go the beach tho cos it rained on our way there... so the ground was wet... sigh. oh well. i had loads of fun. haha...

okie dokes... i think i shall go now... its quite late. ta ta

11:57 pm
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Friday, December 09, 2005

today was probably the most tiring day of my life...

today we went to Nad's mum's Day care centre at Lakeside to bring the kids out to Sentosa for their excursion. and i admit, i'm old... and haven't been exercising... and so, yours truely is down with an acute shoulder ache and a sore throat. sorry kiddos... not that i wanted to yell at you guys or anything... its just that u ppl always don't listen... >.< haha... but i still love all of u. =) will put the photos up on shutterfly when i'm free. yeah... i totally lack exercise... haha. haven't actually exercised ever since AC games... yes... call me a pig. oink.

band practice was a bit off today. everyone was tired. i caught chew syin taking a nap while doing back ups... >.< argh... this isn't good ppl... we are like so close to the actual day... argh. i'm getting all worried here... sigh... still have a lot of things not perfected yet. i'm not saying there's no progress, in fact, the progress has accelerated since we first started. except that we have no more time now... yes, we are out of time. ya, and i'm getting worried.

and that MARK TAN... raarrrr... he had to aggrievate my emotional trauma with weird sickos on friendster by sending me a message that echoed one of those gross freaks who send me 'smiles' and 'hi's... raaarrrr... don't friend u already lar mark... =(

11:38 pm
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Thursday, December 08, 2005

i'm bored again... waiting for dinner... haha... more quizzes. =)

You Are Internal - Realist - Powerful

You feel your life is controlled internally.
If you want something, you make it happen.
You don't wait around for things to go your way.
You value your independence and don't like others to have control.

You are a realist when it comes to luck.
You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random.
You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...
But you do your best to try to make your own luck.

When it comes to who's in charge, it's you.
Life is a kingdom, and you're the grand ruler.
You don't care much about what others think.
But they better care what you think!

The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test

muahahahaa... i'm the queen of my world!!! haha.

What Your Underwear Says About You

It's important that your underwear doesn't offend anyone - in case you get in a car accident.

You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone.

The Underwear Oracle

rrright... and my underwear makes SO much difference... >.<

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.

They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.

It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.

They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

wow... okay... but... i'm not a fussy person what...

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

really?? haha... that's cute. lol. =)

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child.
Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.
You cherish all of the details in life.
Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

lol.

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Deer

Animal You Were in a Past Life: Panda

You are a fun-seeker - an adventurous, risk-taker.
While you are spontaneous, you are not very rational.

The Animal Personality Test

wow... that's new... haha.

You Are 30% Weird

Not enough to scare other people...
But sometimes you scare yourself.

How Weird Are You?

HAHA.

Your Musical Tastes Match: Jennifer Garner

See her whole playlist here (iTunes required)

What Celebrity Matches Your Taste in Music?

woo hoo... jennifer garner!! =)

You Are Uptown

You are classy, cultured, and well educated. You are an expert on the finer things in live.
Your city girl persona loves all of the opportunities a city offers. But only in the best neighborhoods.

Are You Uptown or Downtown?

coolio.

What Your Brown Outfit Means

You're not too classic, not too funky - just up on the latest trends.
You know what looks good on you, and you love to shop!
You project a smart sense of style, which makes people see you as competent.

Designer match: Rebecca Beeson

Signature accessory: A slim leather belt

What Does Your Favorite Outfit Say About You?

lol... shoppaholic.

You Are a Very Good Girl

You are 90% Good and 10% Bad
You're a perfect angel - almost impossibly so
Don't you ever feel like being a little bad?!?

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

yes yes... i am a GOOD girl. =)

oh well... okay... i should stop... >.< hahahahaha...

7:35 pm
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005

I'm sick and bored... raarrr... having giddy spells, stomach ache and fever all at once... that's neat (*the words of nick). lol. and so to kill my boredom...

You Are 17 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

talk about acting my age. haha.

Your Summer Ride is a Beetle Convertible

Fun, funky, and a little bit euro.
You love your summers to be full of style and sun!

What's Your Summer Ride?

OOooooo!!! i love convertibles!!! =)

Your Hair Should Be Orange

Expressive, deep, and one of a kind.
You pull off "weird" well - hardly anyone notices.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

Orange?!?! lol.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Personality Profile

You are dignified, spiritual, and wise.
Always unsatisfied, you constantly try to better yourself.
You are also a seeker of knowledge and often buried in books.

You tend to be philosophical, looking for the big picture in life.
You dream of inner peace for yourself, your friends, and the world.
A good friend, you always give of yourself first.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

i don't think the buried in books part is quite true. lol.

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

wow...

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

OMG... eunuch... =.= like what the...

You Are Lemon Meringue Pie

You're the perfect combo of sassy and sweet
Those who like you have well refined tastes

What Kind of Pie Are You?

coolio... i actually like lemon meringue pie. =)

Your Birthdate: April 26

You lucked out the the skills to succeed in almost any arena.
Put you in almost any business or classroom, and you'll rise to the top.
You're driven and intense, but you also know when to kick back and cooperate.
Your ability to adapt to almost any situation is part of what's going to make you a success.

Your strength: Your attention to detail

Your weakness: You can be a little too proud of your successes

Your power color: Turquoise

Your power symbol: Arrow pointing up

Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

9:56 am
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Monday, December 05, 2005

shopping today.... shop shop shop shop shop... hahahahaha... RUBBER DUCKIES are disgusting!!!! hahahahaha... yes, me and mark almost died finding them. it was quite mad. went from Chinatown to Suntec City to find them... argh... I DON'T LIKE RUBBER DUCKIES. >.< haha. watched Chicken Little with mark today... that show is retarded... omg... DO NOT WATCH IT. hahahahaa... no doubt the chick is cute and graphics were great... but other than that everything was rather dumb. haha. nothing much. today was a rather slacker day... but a tiring slacker day due to the rubber duckies which we re looking for... i just realised that rubber duckies are expensive toys... 4 for $10 or 1 for $6.15... like... Rarrrr.... hahahahahhaa... oh well, can't wait for tomorrow's CIP with the kids at First Toa Payoh Primary School!!! yay. =)

11:11 pm
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Thursday, December 01, 2005

Memories 2005
First few minutes of 1st of December 2005. looking back, it has certainly been a fruitful year and God has really been faithful to me throughout this trying year full of trials. yet, there will always be memories (happy or sad) that will stay with me for the rest of my life that have impacted me so much and have truely changed my life. indeed 2005 has been a great year and looking back, i don't regret a single moment spent with those whom i dearly treasure and love; those times when we laughed and those times when we cried. as the last month of the year arrives, i certainly hope that next year would be an even more fulfilling and eventful year. =) i'm super excited!!! hahaha. thank u, each and every one of u that has made 2005 such a great year for me and created such awesome memories that would last more than a lifetime. muaks. hugs.

*this is a lil bit anticlimax, but due to the fact that blogger's photo downloading system is the most irritating in this universe, i have uploaded all the fabulous photos onto Shutterfly.com. simply click this link --> http://share.shutterfly.com/action/welcome?sid=2CbsXLVszYsIm&notag=1

12:03 am
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