Your love is warmer than the warmest sunshine

Thursday, March 02, 2006

have u ever wondered what is love?

yes, that four lettered word that emcompasses a meaning so deep and so profound that the true depth of those 4 mere letters is beyond human comprehension.

is love the feeling we get on Valentines Day? is the love the word we sometimes loosely use with our close friends and that special someone? do you really mean it when u say those 3 words 'i love you'?

yet, love is not so easy... to love... to truely love is being unconditional. and because God insists on himself being love, it is all the more difficult to truely say 'i love you' because if God embodies the whole and true and ultimate meaning of perfect love then we being the imperfect human would certainly have to struggle hard to attain the goal at which we have set for ourselves: perfect and Godly love.

if u are wondering why i have this sudden random entree on love and its meaning, well, let's just say that perhaps cupid has been shooting way too many arrows at people whom i know and are close to over the past few months. and seriously, i'm starting to wonder what to love someone really means... and believe me, i've only understood perhaps the tip of the ice berg?

i'm not saying that they shouldn't be in love or get together or anything... i'm not exactly in any position to judge their relationship or whether they should be together or not... its just slightly worrysome... its scary sometimes how close friends of yours just suddenly all decide to get together. of course, i do wish them all the best and hope that their relationships will work out.

as for me, i want to get back the FIRST LOVE. yes, the first love that i have for Him.
revelations 2:4 says clearly "Yet i hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love." and no, i do not want to be held accountable on judgement day for forsaking that first love... yeap. even as the pressure mounts and homework piles up, stress levels increasing exponantially each day and uncertainty surrounds us about the plans and future, i really want Him to be the centre of my attention... i want Him to have all the attention that He can get from me at every waking moment of the day.

take me past the outer courts,
to Your holy place,
past the brazen alter,
Lord i want to see Your face.
pass me by the crowds of people,
the priests who sing your praise,
i hunger and thirst for your righteousness,
and its only found in one place.

take me in to the holy of holies.

yes, and because i want to honour Him only, i'm gonna let IT go.
i will wait.

11:12 pm
soak up the son