Your love is warmer than the warmest sunshine

Monday, March 20, 2006

Remember this song that we sang not so long ago?

bless this school oh Lord we pray
make it safe by night and day
bless these wall so firm and stout
keeping want and trouble out
bless the roof and tower tall
let thy peace lie over all
bless doors that they may prove
ever open to joy and love

bless these windows shining bright
letting in God's heavenly light
bless this hall astanding here
filled with singing and with prayer
bless the people here within
keep them pure and free from sin
bless us all that we may be
fit O Lord to dwell with thee
bless us all that we one day may
dwell O Lord with thee

why do i tear whenever i hear it? maybe because it brings back years of memories that i will never forget. all the tears and smiles.

but i'm afraid that you won't remember these memories anymore. so often afraid that it would just become a part of the past and you would just forget it all. sometimes i wish we all weren't so far apart, sometimes i wish we all didn't have to leave. then it would save us so much pain. sometimes i wonder why we all have to grow up and be who we are. sometimes i wonder if you feel that we are drifting apart? i'm scared. because i don't want to, but i'm scared. i feel it because we haven't met up for about a month and we don't really miss each other. everything around us cause us to lack fellowship and gathering. i blame myself for being so busy and having such a crazy hectic schedule... sigh.

yes, i admit. i'm scared. but please tell me that its gonna be all right, and its just me being insecure over nothing.

eek. i'm getting all gross and melancholic. i'd better snap myself out of this.

9:27 pm
soak up the son