Sunday, April 30, 2006
They can do anything they want to do
If you let them in
But they won't ever win
If you cling to your pride
And just push them aside
See
I have learned there's an inner peace I own
Something in my soul
That they cannot possess
So I won't be afraid
And darkness will fade
=((
10:26 pm
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just wanna take this opportunity to say a huge THANK YOU to all those special special people who have made my 18th a truely unforgettable one. i love you guys. i really thank God for bringing you guys into my life. each and every one of u have been such a blessing to me. muacks. =)
6:50 pm
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i
Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Somebody is praying
Please let us come home to stay
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i
When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and i
8:33 pm
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006
roar. school. work. lack of sleep.
angst.
what's wrong now?
haha. i'm really tired.
here we go again.
i wish i could go for a month long break. sigh...
stop bottling up everything.
9:42 pm
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Monday, April 17, 2006
yesterday was SIN MING LONG's birthday!!!
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MING LONG!!!!
yes yes... its been a year since i got to know you... and boy have u changed. for the better of course. you never fail to make me laugh out loud whenever we sing pok pok and i look at your face. haha. its been awesome sitting next to you for the longest time ever. haha. so now, when i'm sandwiched in between enci and jing hui, i still feel a bit strange. haha. yes, i miss sitting next to you and jabbing you whenever you crack. haha. i just wanna thank God for getting to know you better this past year, from me glaring at that guy from cat high in tenor section who's very annoying to missing that (same) person who's so retarded but so nice to have around. i'm really gonna miss u tons when we graduate man... x) 
cheers to many many many many many many many more years of friendship!!! =))
*bubbles around* MUAHAHAHAHAHA...
9:06 pm
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Friday, April 14, 2006
today's GOOD FRIDAY!!!!
haha. i've slacked my whole day away. haven't done any work at all. haha. =P can't wait for band prac later. muahahahaha.
anyway, yesterday, my 2 darling-est friends also known as N-squared or the Love Birds or better refered to as Tarzan and Jane, asked me and clement out for a lil birthday dinner. yes. does that sound innocent to you? why it sure did to me. but uh uh *shakes head*, that cheeky couple had something up their sleeves.
so the story begins when nadine called me up the day before (wednesday night):
esther (who was watching tv): hello!!!
nadine: hey, tomorrow's outing right, bring clothes okay? must remember to bring clothes ok? cos we are going to take you all to some posh nosh restaurant.
esther: *extremely excited* OKAY!!!
but to my ultimate horror, the next day when the 2 OH CHEEKY ONES picked me up after geog S class, THEY DID NOT BRING CLOTHES!!!!! *yun dao*
unfortunately, the shirt i borrowed from my sister was extremely disgusting and so i dared not wear it cos it was too 'hole-y' and i was just in total shock at the airy-ness of the shirt. haha. so nic, being a really kind soul, lent me his ACJC blue shirt, i ended up looking like a total weirdo in ACJC oversized shirt and jeans and my school shoes. yes, what could get worse? after threatening to jump off the mrt dozens of times and giving the couple heart attacks on the way there, we finally made it to Jurong Point. nadine was really nice and got me a nice black shirt from Giordano. haha. thanks nads.
when clement arrived, all 4 of us went to Crystal Jade Xiao Long Bao and had a nice nice dinner. =) to my relief, clement was also wearing casuals so i didn't feel like some odd one out. but the strange part was that throughout the dinner, the 2 OH CHEEKY ONES were giving each other bizarre smiles and grins and me and clement were like O.O". hahahahaa.
after dinner, nadine suggested we settle down at the Food Court and talk. doesn't that sound like a perfectly innocent plan? why yes. so the 4 of us walked to the Food Court and propped ourselves down. they took out our presents and just when i thought it was 'open the presents time':
nadine and nic: *at the same time* oh yes, we have some STUFF to attend to. err, u guys wait here okay? and don't touch the presents yet.
me and clement: =.=" okay....
nadine and nic: *scoots off really quick*
me and clement: .......
-2 minutes later- *clement's phone rings*
clement: *picks up the phone* hello... huh?!?!... look in the plastic bag with the presents??... the middle of the presents??? *searches the inside of the bag* *finds movie tickets to ICE AGE* BOTH OF YOU ARE SO GOING TO GET IT... ok ok... what the... *puts down the phone*
me and clement: *yun dao*=.="
yes. so me and clement went to watch ICE AGE 2 courtesy of the 2 OH CHEEKY ONES. haha. ICE AGE 2 was not too bad. quite funny. just that i think ICE AGE 1 was better. hahahahaha. so confirms my theory that sequels to original movies just don't work. but oh well.
the show ended near 10.30pm?!?!?! super late lor. first time i caught a late night movie in my life. haha. yes yes.
so yes, thanks to the 2 OH CHEEKY ONES who were hanging out at Macs while we were at the movie, we had quite a day. not to mention guest appearance by mister Zhang Yi hui. hahaha. watch out you two. muahahahahaha. you two are so gonna get a hundred full return of what u guys did to us on your birthday!!!! BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAA...
6:33 pm
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006
I wanna feel this way longer than time
I wanna know your dreams and make them mine
I wanna change the world only for you
All the impossible i wanna do
I wanna hold you close under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile and feel your pain
I know it's beautiful looking at you
You're in a world of lies, you are the truth
And baby, every time you touch me, I become a hero
I'll make you safe no matter where you are
And bring you anything you ask for, nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me
I wanna make you see just what i want
Show you that lonliness and what it does
You walked into my life to stop my tears
Everything is easy now, I have you here
And baby, every time you touch me, I become a hero
I'll make you safe no matter where you are
And bring you anything you ask for, nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me
In a world without you (Without you)
I will always hunger
All i need is true love to make me stronger
Yeaa......
And baby, every time you touch me, I become a hero
I'll make you safe no matter where you are
And bring you anything you ask for, nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me
When you tell me that you love me
When you tell me that you love me
When you tell me that you love me
please don't give up on me
8:36 pm
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Sunday, April 09, 2006
many things have happened over the brief one week and most of it wasn't sunshine and kittens. on the contrary, the week left me mostly in confusion and internal conflict. not knowing what to do and how to react; not knowing what was 'doing the right thing' (believe it or not, we are always asked to 'do the right thing' and never really realise how subjective the 'right thing' could be when it comes to real life situations); wondering what God's will for my life really is; wondering if risks are supposed to be taken or not.
most of all, i was constantly asking myself 'are my actions according to God's will or my own?' yes. such a sinple yet often baffling question. but i've come to realisation that the still small voice within you can really answer that question, u just have to sit down and listen. and yes, i mean listen. not yack away asking God about the future or complaining that life's problems are just too much to handle. sometimes we should just stop talking and start listening. seek God's heart and not His hands.
James 4:13-17
'Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. Anyone then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins.'
i will let Him lead me by the hand in this journey. for i know that He will catch His princess when she's falling and is her source of comfort and eternal joy.
7:05 pm
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'passion makes you crazy, but is there any other way to live?'
my heart is torn into bits beyond repair. but Lord, Your plans are above mine.
"For i know the plans i have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
my future is in Your hands, Lord.
12:12 am
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