Sunday, July 23, 2006
i've realised the wonders of shopping on ebay only yesterday. haha. yes, how sad. but oh well.
managed to get something that is no longer sold in Singapore anymore. tho i haven't exactly paid for it yet, i'm like still conversing with the seller now, i'm quite sure i'll be getting it within a week. yeap. bliss. =)
retail therapy at the click of a button and without even stepping out of your house is quite amazing. especially when you are shopping from a shop that is not even in the sunny island of Singapore. hahahaha.
anyways, went to shop shop a while with my parents today. bought a pair of Converses!!! hurray!!! i've been wanting one for a really long time. my momsy got a nice pair of Asix and we were 2 happy ladies. hahahaha. yeap yeap.
jolene told me she was going to shop in a bit in the afternoon... wonder how her lil shopping spree went.
okay. back to work now.
5:54 pm
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Saturday, July 22, 2006
Lord, forgive me. for i did not know what i was doing..
8:09 pm
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Tuesday, July 18, 2006
today was such a longggggg day... haha.
so many people decided to self declare holiday today: cheryl chua, zhu zhu, .. sigh... all my girly study buddies were missing today. mich had to leave really early so i was left to study with THE BOYS. hahahahaa... yea. alvin mun, fish, asten (is that how his name is spelt? haha. oh well.), brendan, ashish, michael, subas (who was stealing my food. hahaha..), jon tang, barry (the brain. XP), detergent boy beh who was being anti and sitting in another table, adrian, yap chow, carl, and so many more people who kinda came and left.. haha. this is going to be quite random, but the HUB is quite a bad place to study cos it gets rather noisy in there.. rawr.
it was a fun studying with them and i had a very nice time laughing at and with them and also being laughed at (which happened most of the evening) yeap. haha... but boys will be boys, so ALL MY GIRLFRIENDS PLEASE COME BACK TO SCHOOL!!! hahahahaha...
btw, ethel, where on earth are you? you've been MIA for an absolutely positively long time.
okay, back to work...
Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom
10:01 pm
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Monday, July 17, 2006
stress ah... i have so much homework today that i think its gonna be impossible for me to sleep tonight. sigh...
just got back from tuition and just had my freezing dinner. roar. i look at my sister sleeping sounding on her bed in the room and i just wish i could be in my lil nest too.. T.T
okay, time to start work. no more time to lose.
And baby, every time you touch me, I become a hero
I'll make you safe no matter where you are
And bring you anything you ask for, nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me
=)
10:46 pm
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Sunday, July 16, 2006
so much homework... i'm dying here... haha... trying to de-stress for a while here.
my sis just reminded me that Founders' Day is coming up... hahaha... i probably won't be going back to MG for Founders' but well the memories will always be there... some things we will never forget... the friendships, the smiles, the tears, the pink and blue building that no longer exists and so much more... =)
Bless this school O Lord we pray
Make it safe by night and day
Bless these walls so firm and stout
Keeping want and trouble out
Bless the roof and tower tall
Let Thy peace lie over all
Bless these door that they may prove
Ever open to joy and love
Bless these windows shining bright
Letting in God's heavenly light
Bless these hall astanding here
Filled with singing and with prayer
Bless the people here within
Keep them pure and free from sin
Bless us all that we may be
Fit O Lord to dwell with thee
Bless us all that we one day
May dwell... O Lord... with thee..
to Master, to Grow, and to Serve. =)
11:09 pm
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ladidah... i've just come back from quite a satisfying shopping trip with my dear family. tee hee.
haven't blogged for a few days, but during these few days, i realised that many people have been thinking quite a bit. well, i'm quite an optimistic person and like even if i do think about stuff, it usually doesn't bother me for very long nowadays and so sometimes i am amazed by how much other people think. seriously. and the best part is, they can't seem to snap out of it. and they carry on for a while in this little pit and never seem to be able to get themselves out of their 'thoughts'.
if i make it seem as if u shouldn't reflect on your life and actions and words, well i'm not trying to say that. i'd be lying if i said i haven't thought about my own life and person as a whole. but i feel that sometimes such obsessive thinking can really get you down and drive u a bit mad. because seriously, thoughts never really end. like in poetry, all those run-on-lines never seem to allow the fullstop to come. they seem to go on and on and on. and yes, that's our human thought process, this never ending stretch of ideas that race through our brain.
the thing is, i realised that a lot of times, it is during these thought processes, especially when you haven't been spending time in Daddy God's presence and u don't have people around you to get you to snap out of it and guide you back on track that the devil manages to manipulate them and cause you to feel insignificant and isolated. worst still, make you seem far away from God and impossible for God to reach. and then these thoughts never end and u just drift further and further away from His love. haha. yeah. my goodness, that's when u can really go mad.
i mean, thinking isn't wrong. but the thing is, under what circumstances are u brought to thought? is it a realisation of God's love for you and those around u that u reflect on His goodness? is it during service when the pastor said something about a certain character trait that u know u lack and want to have and then reflect on what you've been doing wrong, asking God to mould you into the person He wants you to be? or is it some nasty stuff said by a friend and further words of discouragement that put u down and u start thinking that maybe u are such a horrible person and u need to change for the better? or is it a snowball of previous situations that have made u realise that maybe u suck after all and everything wrong that ever happened was because of you? somehow u probably don't realise it, but when u are overwhelmed by these thoughts, they are usually about you. yes, its just about you you you and only you. thoughts like, how am I supposed to react? is there anything wrong in being ME? am I such a terrible person? maybe I do deserve to be treated this way, maybe that's why people saying such things to ME... but hey! wait a second there, seriously, its really not about US. its about Him. its not about ME, I or MYSELF. which would bring us back to our fundamental question as a human being. then what am I here for? well, simple. you are here for Him.
sometimes i choose not to think so much because i know that its really not going to get me anywhere but make me develop spiral into depression. i'm not running away from self reflection or self awareness and realisation. but its because i know that everything i do, is for His glory and His fame and not mine. so if i'm not living for myself, the thoughts and questions that i pose to myself shouldn't be angled to me, myself and i. you know, i think its times like these when there our minds are so clogged up by thoughts that we can't hear that still small voice that is calling deep down within our hearts.
whoar... it sounds very easy to say huh? haha. well, i know cos there were so many times when i almost went mad. yet the only reason why i can sit here today in front of my computer is cos of my Daddy God's love and the fact that i know that He will never fail His princess. NEVER. even if the world came tumbling down on me, He will protect me and catch me.
i know its not easy, but i guess for my dearest friends out there (*you know who you are), i hope you listen out for the Holy Spirit calling within you. cos He will teach you what to do and He is the comforter. yeap. =)
*disclaimer: this ain't an emo post... was meant to encourage people who are emo.
on a lighter note, i just got my Orientation 2006 cd!! yay!! me, gerrarder and our kiddos.. woots!! CEREBRO ROCKS!!
5:23 pm
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Thursday, July 13, 2006
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)
Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway
I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come fromI gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway
feeling very random now. but i think this song describes my feelings very aptly. sigh.
okay, back to work. rawr.
10:19 pm
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i just finished my e4 short story analysis... *faints*
and goodness me, i am just exhausted.
it took me 4 hours to finish that lil story analysis... roar.
zzzzz...
Daddy God, i need a piggy back right about now... tomorrow is gonna be such a longggg day.
1:43 am
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Sunday, July 09, 2006
The words have been drained from this pencil
Sweet words that I want to give you
And I cant sleep, I need to tell you... goodnight
goodnight to you. =)
12:02 am
soak up the son
Friday, July 07, 2006
esther has been dragging her tired little body to school every single day over the past week..
Daddy God, cannot take it liao. school is killing me.
today, i was just so exhausted. u might say i'm exaggerating. like come on, its just a normal thursday and its not like your time table has changed since last term anyways.
WELL, BOY HAS IT CHANGED!!
i was so tired today that after geog s ended i went home immediately, took a nice hot bath and tried to read my war lit text a bit while having my little Post Honeybunch with REAL Strawberries cereal dinner and then after that i wanted to relax a while and watch tv, but i ended up flopping like a dead dog on my mom's bed while watching tv. =.=" like how CMI is that. plus, i think i'm falling sick... been waking up these few mornings with block nose and what not.
roar. praise God for half day tomorrow. tho that means more studying and extra time for revision. argh. whatever.
i'm so glad i managed to finish my direly overdue lit homework. haha. yeah. made myself chiong finish the whole stupid essay just now after i woke up. gosh.
well well, got gp to do now. i wonder if i can even get any sleep tonight. haha. plus, i have tons of notes to finish up and econs homework for tomorrow!! ahhhhhhhhhhhh... okay, i sound like i'm going mad. haha.
i miss tour choir!!!! haha. actually, i think i'm quite selfish for wanting to see them again so soon and wanting them to come back so quickly. i mean, going to London for choir tour is like a once in a lifetime kinda thingy and i should be hoping that they have such an unforgettable experience there that they'd attempt to rebel and not come back and quit school and stay there forever as chorestors or something. yea. haha. but here i am, secretly hoping that they come back soon and 12 days pass quickly. such a selfish little ambition. sigh. miss them so much lor... argh. whoar that day preparing for farewell song, i felt so sad even thinking of leaving AC college choir... roar. =P anyways, JIA YOU for the competitions!!! just do your best and we will always be proud of you regardless of results!!! GO FOR IT!! =)
oh well. time to get back to gp. yawn. *sniff sniff*
hey you... hope u are doing great over there. =) God bless you so so so so much.
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
12:26 am
soak up the son
Sunday, July 02, 2006
church today...
perhaps i know why i Daddy God didn't allow me to go for tour now.
well, i lead worship in church today for the Youth Day service. haha.
yeap. God was awesome in church today. i know Daddy God always is. just that today, he really poured out his favour on the band. i finally see His plan and His hand in it all. =)
had a good chat with Clare today. laughed, talked, shared and poured out a lot of stuff in our lives. hahaha... its been a while Clare, but i'm so glad we managed to catch up.
yeap yeap.
the ulcer on my upper lip is hurting like mad. i don't think i can even drink anything for the next few days. roar.
and until we meet again
until me weet again
may God hold you in the palm of His hand
8:22 pm
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on a lighter note, i just got my Orientation 2006 cd!! yay!! me, gerrarder and our kiddos.. woots!! CEREBRO ROCKS!!