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Tuesday, January 02, 2007

TOMORROW

no new year resolutions yet. actually i'm personally surprised that i don't have any. well, i'm quite a planner but this time round, i've got zilchness in my resolution so far.

not sure what's gonna happen cos everything suddenly seems to temporal and so surreal. is tomorrow REALLY going to be the start of the new school term? am i REALLY grown up now? what am i going to do from now on? where do i go from here?

all those questions flood my mind, and the best part is that deep inside, my inner spirit is kinda flustered. can't seem to have anything to hold on to anymore, no more assurances. its as if i'm pushed to the deep end and just let go of with no warning. scary indeed. i realise that there are so many things so dear to me, so many memories will flood my heart when i walk into those school gates again at 5.30am tomorrow morning on Blackmore Drive. but those people who used to be there are just shadows and memories that i can no longer grasp. i have to be independent now, all alone to deal with this independence. i don't want to grow up... =((

but amidst all those rather sad feelings in me, i guess i've learnt to become a stronger person, to cling to Him to assurance and no one else cos really everyone has to go their own way sooner or later and the physicalities just prevent meeting up face to face. i've learnt that regretting is the most painful feeling, as though one part of you dies cos you'll never know. perhaps my new year's resolution will be to live each day with no regrets. =))

over the past few days i met up with my dearest F5, choir peeps, and AHSCones. people that are so close to my heart and have impacted my life in various ways, watched me grow and protected me time and time again. words fail to express my gratitude and thanks for each one of you. i wouldn't know where and what i'd be without you and i truely thank God for each of you. =))

rightios. guess i'll be off to bed now. long day tomorrow.. can't wait to start educating curious young minds. haha.

WORLD PEACE!!

teach me how to teach..

10:36 pm
soak up the son