Your love is warmer than the warmest sunshine

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Finally uni apps are settled!!

I've been having countless nights of insomnia due to the thought of missing the dead line lingering relentlessly at the back of my head. as you all know, i'm quite a worry-wart.. so sue me if you want. anyways, ITS DONE. other than the fact that my 'other supporting documents' have not been submitted yet and i haven't paid the application fees, which technically means the application isn't complete. rawrrr. i got a threat mail from NUS a few days ago, warning me that if i didn't pay the $10 for application by 1st april, my application is considered void.. =.=" give me a break.

i haven't been updating my blog for a while cos of work and so many other things that have been happening. partly also due to the fact that i have to face the computer 24/7 at work and by the time i get home, i'm pretty sick of having to switch on the laptop again. haha.

i really can't wait to get back to school again.

and OMG, my bestest best best friend HON JING YI GOT INTO BROWN!!!! *fainted* i was so happy for her i started announcing it out loud at like 9 am to everyone in my department. haha. i am so proud of you hons.. SO PROUD. gawsh!! brown eh, beat that mannn. opportunity of a life time. AMERICA!! WHOARRR.. i'd gladly give you the 350K if i had the money.

rightios, time for japanese lesson. better not be late again today. =S

i'm super excited for mondayyyyy.. lalalala.

to world peace! =))

10:59 am
soak up the son

Saturday, March 24, 2007

ARGHHHH... sorry. don't be emo. :((

sorry. its my fault.

1:04 pm
soak up the son

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Way Back to Loveeeee

i've been living with a shadow overhead
i've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
i've been lonely for so long
trapped in the past, i just can't seem to move on

i've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
just in case i ever need them again someday
i've been setting aside time
to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

i've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
i've been searching but I just don't see the signs
i know that it's out there
there's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

i've been looking for someone to shed some light
not somebody just to get me through the night
i could use some direction
and i'm open to your suggestions

there are moments when i don't know if it's real
or if anybody feels the way i feel
i need inspiration
not just another negotiation

all I wanna do is find a way back into love
i can't make it through without a way back into love
and if i open my heart again
i guess i'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

i love this songgggg...
POP goes my heart. :P

12:05 pm
soak up the son

Monday, March 19, 2007

Insomniac

I can see you
Don't even know you
Fallin' into the sheets at night
Place my hands flat on my chest
I feel the heartbeat back the night
I've tried counting the sheep
And I talk to the shepard
And played with my pillow forever, ever
I sit alone and I watch the clock
I breathe in on the tick
And out on the tock

I can hear your bare feet on the kitchen floor
I don't have to have these dreams no more
And I found someone just to hold me tight
Hold the insomniac all night
I dig my head down deep
So I can't hear the cars
Outside on the street
And the stars are laughin'
They get a kick out of my misery
I've tried everything short of Aristotle
Took Dramamine and whiskey bottle
Pray for the day when my ship comes in
And I can sleep the sleep of the just again

Won't you hold me and keep on holding me

Won't you wait for me..
Let me believe that time is no barrier..
Give me the faith not to fear..
Because you are that dream that i've been dreaming about all along.
___ June.. Counting down till then.

3:20 pm
soak up the son

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Retail Therapy!!

what's more relaxing than waking up at 1pm on a lazy saturday afternoon, snuggling in bed for another half an hour before rubbing your sleepy eyes and taking a slow stroll to the bathroom. mmm mmm. :)

so sweeeetttt.

9:30 pm
soak up the son

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

sometimes fear just grips you and refuses to let go simply cos you don't know what the future has to hold. the sick feeling of not being eligible for the course i have always dreamed of studying is sucking me into this bottomless black hole. my goal, my passion, my ambition, my future, my hopes, my dreams.. GONE. but i'm not going to give up on it. sometimes i feel as though my insides are eating me up, devouring the very last cell in my body. i sound depressed. maybe i am.

while the rest of the world (or most of my friends, at least) are celebrating their victories, i can only hide in the corner at my own loss. i don't know when i can ever peek my head out of that corner again to step into the light. the shadows seem like a safer place. i know that my teachers are very disappointed in me, my form teacher for one: i can so see her looking at me with those sympathetic eyes and tell me that i have so much potential, but i blew it. to the world, i have failed.

there's no one to point fingers at. many of my friends have said that God will open and close the right doors. yet, i know deep inside that i have closed those doors on myself. if only i could cry. you know that you've reached the epitomy of grief when your tear glands can't even excruciate anything no matter how sad you are. everything is on the inside. the crumbling inner world.

only You can hold my world up.

3:29 pm
soak up the son

looks like everyone's moving on.
i'm glad that it was you who let me go first

that's a good thing. =)

i've been stuck here for way too long.

9:59 am
soak up the son

Sunday, March 04, 2007

give me direction..

i don't regret but i have to face it. for the benefit of everyone, this has to end.

11:47 pm
soak up the son