Your love is warmer than the warmest sunshine

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

thinking thinking thinking..

i've been wondering what has happened to myself over the past few weeks. as tho all the dark clouds in the world have decided to plonk their grey fat arses over me and block off all the sunshine in my life; maybe its spiritual drought in my life at the moment; maybe its hormonal changes; maybe its stress at work; maybe cos i haven't packed for HK and its in 4 days time; maybe its cos i'm at the crossroads of my life now; maybe cos i'm only 19 and not ready to make so many choices; maybe cos i've been feeling strangely unsettled; maybe cos i'm not even acting like me anymore; maybe cos i'm so tired every day that everyone in office says my colour is getting paler by the day; maybe cos my head is really spinning now; maybe cos i think i'm pretty depressed; maybe...

i really want to just run away and hide in a little corner. there's this gloomy monster eating my insides. i feel like pouting the whole day and throw a friggin tantrum. i am becoming this mood swingy emo shit. RAWRRRRRR.. but escapism isn't exactly going to solve anything.

i just need a shoulder to lean on now.

all that i am is in you
all that i see is to follow you
i run to your side when you call
there is the hope i am longing for

just to be by your side
there is hope in my life
there is no greater freedom i'll find

so take my life
and all that i have to give
take my world just inhabit all of it
take my dreams make me assuredly yours

9:37 am
soak up the son