Your love is warmer than the warmest sunshine

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

i have a feeling June 2007 is going to be an eventful one. :)))) the anticipation is killing me.. buahahaa.

other than coming back fatigued from our smashing F5 Hongkongland Tour 2007 and then going for cell beach soccer and rugby the very next day of my arrival in our sunny singapore, i have unfortunately returned to my mundane schedule of work work work and more work. nothing beats sitting in the office, staring at your computer screen and waiting for your butt to get fat. these days my motiation to workout at Planet Fitness has offically fizzed off into nothingness and i'm ballooning exponentially. hahahaha. okay that's not exactly true cos i haven't had much appetite since i came back from hongkongland.. maybe cos the food there is so amazingly nice!! :PP yew char kuay and porridge and harm jin pang and tim sum and wan ton noodles and mango dessert. MMmmmmm... i'm having midnight cravings again. heh.

there's this part of me that always seems to doubt, even when i'm 99.999999% sure of something, i can't help but feel that itty bit of doubt that creeps in so subtly and then envelops my confidence. insecurity and fear grips me, then all hell breaks lose and i cave in emotionally into depression. i find that the older i get the more i insecure i am. perhaps its also cos the older you get the more freedom you have and hence the more choices you have to make and wanting to make those 'right' choices causes you to become more afraid to take risks and get hurt. sigh.. sad case.

i hope the courage that i saw in you and inspired me never fades away..

12:01 am
soak up the son